thecapitol | I'll be your harvester of light

Who| The Disciple; openish!
What| The Disciple wanders in search of Signless
Where| Training Center
When| Late Week 5/Early Week 6
Warnings/Notes| Angst purrobably

The avoxs have replaced three pillows since she returned and somewhere in her haze, she hoped they didn't get in trouble for the mess they were throwing away. Torn to shreds, covered in green tears, it's not their fault. She's the one acting like a wiggler. Acting like her whole world has fallen apart. Childlishly holing up in her room, waiting for Signless to come to her, to apologize for the hell he put her through. But that's stupid, she realized. Selfish. Cruel.

Eventually she forced herself to watch the coverage. Watch every moment, from Psiionic and Signless, to Terezi and Karkat--the Ininiate who makes her blood boil...To the death in her arms. She watched it twice more, until the tears stop falling and she could face it as it is.

And she still does not know what to say to him. The hate boils but mixes with pity and god she needs a pap, she needs a soothing touch because the Ininiate is somewhere in these walls and she wants to--needs to hunt him down and make him pay.

That's how she ends up wandering around, trying to find him. Down to District 1 where Karkat lives and up to Twelve where he lives. Her stupid selfishness needs to end.

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Look, Di, he was a tool of the system for most of his life. He's only just getting used to this shit.

Karkat snorts her reply. "I'm pretty sure he hasn't left District Twelve since he got here. I was the one who came to him. He's super fucked up right now. You should probably go and see him so he knows you don't hate him. I mean, not in the good way, I guess, you guys are really fucking weird about quadrants, you know that."

"I know."

Another selfish spike, why did she have to go to him, he had to know how much that hurt her. To be so dismissed as irrelevant to his wellbeing, to be pushed aside when she only wanted to help. She swallows the selfish stupidity and looks at him with the faintest smile.

"I am well aware. Nepeta and every troll I've met have told me such. But it worked--works? Though I'm starting to feel like I need my own moirail...You do him much good."

"He's helped me a lot," Karkat says with a shrug. "There's a lot of shit only he really understands. Because of how he is, I guess."

"I know. I mean, I think I do at least." She shakes her head, "But you do him a lot of good. I mean, you're taking care of him so well and I don't think...You're just so very pale for each other."

Destiny? Maybe. She doesn't really believe in that nonsense. Maybe he's better for Signless than Psiionic was.

He shrugs again. "We weren't supposed to even meet," Karkat says, "except we came here. If that's not Troll Serendipity, I don't know what is."

She smiles faintly. Troll Serendipity. She doesn't really believe in it, since she's pretty sure she screws it up by having all of her quadrants in one. Yet she finds the idea sort of charming. It does seem like serendipity. Fate.

"I'm glad you found each other."

"Yeah," Karkat says. "Me too." It's been nice having a moirail, to have someone else who understands about shit like Sgrub and being a mutant.

Her smile flashes at him for a moment before she has an awkward though. She brushed at her outfit, long sleeves getting in her way for a moment before she looks up at him again.

"You don't mind if I go see him alone, do you?"

He shakes his head. "I'd feel weird being around anyway."

It wasn't like they'd use the opportunity to pail, Signless being how he was, but still.

She tilts her head, amusement coloring her voice, "I promise I won't steal him from you. It helps to have someone else being pale for him. As many paps as we can manage."

Then a slight pause, "I'll be going up now then. Thank you." She smiled.

"Okay?" Sorry, Disciple, Karkat's kind of confused about how he should act around you. "Take care of him."

I'll be your harvester of light

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