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The Initiate Fraysong ♑ (Young GHB) ([personal profile] carnagecarnival) wrote in [community profile] thecapitol2014-04-17 01:58 am

When you were young you were the king of carrot flowers

Who| Initiate, Gamzee, Kurloz, and the old goat! OPEN TO ALL!!
What| Bad raps, bad food choices, bad habits, bad people, brooding. Come meet the Makaras!
Where| All over the tribute tower, the commons, D5, and outside
When| Thicker Than Blood week!
Warnings/Notes|  Swears and slurs. Drug references. Past abuse/neglect implied. Atrocities done in the name of rap and miracles. Body modification / self harm / mouth stitching. Creepy awful people with Problems.

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disciplewhomsignlessloves: (And darling you know)

Re: [Initiate, Gamzee, Kurloz, The Seagoat] Late night outside the tribute tower

[personal profile] disciplewhomsignlessloves 2014-04-21 01:36 am (UTC)(link)
Most of her nights now are spent up with her lusus. For all she has adjusted, the bright brilliant lusus does not and it's all she can do to stay beside them, hands curled in the fur, trying not to fall asleep. It's odd to stay up all night again. Odd to sleep until the sun is already lowering again. But this night she managed to keep her lusus up most of the day and she's free to roam a little.

It's easier to walk around with them. It hurts to think that, honestly, but it is easier. There's less attention and less worry that those claws will find some purchase in the Capitolites. Less worry they'll be put down.

So it's easier to find him. Discreet questions led her out here--only to find a whole party of them there, three of them and a lusus. A matched set. She sees the other one there in bones and feathers, sees the Initiate like him. A smaller one up on top, perhaps his descendant. She has a moment to wonder what he is like before she catches their notice.

She's dressed in her green this time after all, a more usual leather and fur affair, not the decadent things they'd covered her in lately. Her hais is more tamed than usual, the front done in tiny braids, each with a little cat hairclip at the end. It's an odd contrast but the Disciple doesn't seem to notice. Or care that is.

"Initiate? I needed to talk to you." And what a strange thing that was to say.
disciplewhomsignlessloves: (Forged for the peace)

[personal profile] disciplewhomsignlessloves 2014-04-21 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
She watches that flurry of activity with cautious eyes, her hands always wrapped tight around the leash just in case--just in case. When things seem to calm a little, he jumps in the water, just like that. Like it's not dangerous or anything. She takes a few steps back before he surfaces. He's closer now and his other version farther away. She drags her eyes from the one in heels, with a smile that makes her wince and wonder all at once and looks up at Initiate. His hair is surprising full even wet. Weird.

"Has she talked to you yet? She didn't mean to hurt you personally and don't you dare yell about her wanting to go back into the arenas. You and I both know we're trying to get our quadrants out before ourselves. Don't yell at her for going back in--in fact just don't yell at her."

Her hands are on her hips and she's never felt quite this protective of a troll besides Signless before. And there wasn't two other people just as protective here with her, it was just her and him. She felt the cat clips bounce against her arms.
disciplewhomsignlessloves: (Cause I'm a hopeless wanderer)

[personal profile] disciplewhomsignlessloves 2014-04-21 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
Her eyes narrow and she steps in close. Her hands start sliding down into fists--but she forces them loose. A deep breath. She looks back over at Kurloz, then flits to him right in front of her.

"I can't believe we were ever red." She says, harsh for a moment, "Talk to her. She's afraid, you hurt her deeply. I know she hurt you and she's so afraid you won't talk to her again. That it's broken. Whatever you two have."
disciplewhomsignlessloves: (Forged for the peace)

[personal profile] disciplewhomsignlessloves 2014-04-23 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
"She's not worried about that! It never even crossed her mind! She's worried you hate her okay, and not in the good kind of way, in the way where you never talk to her again."

Her cheeks are flushed in her surrogate anger--how dare he be so rude to Terezi, who didn't understand what she did wrong. Who was scared he wouldn't accept her apology.

"And if you really want to know, Kankri told me we were close but he--" And she nods over the water at his other self, "--told me. Bowed to me and all these weird things..."

disciplewhomsignlessloves: (Forged for the peace)

[personal profile] disciplewhomsignlessloves 2014-04-27 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
She doesn't understand them, their intense fear of things, their strange relationship. Her nails bite into her hands as she listens, meeting his eyes until he looks away. She doesn't take care of herself--no she doesn't. And she wants to the person who makes her, who tells her things are dumb and that she should take care of herself. That she should keep trying to live even if she gives up her chance of opting out entirely.

She doesn't want to tell him that, not when it's fresh and uncertain and new, she doesn't want to spout pale bullshit about her at him that he doesn't need to or deserve to hear.

"She wants what you want. To get others out. To save your quadrants before yourself. To go back in to make sure everyone is okay and to help them--I do that every time I go back into the arena and I thought--maybe Signless had a chance this time, maybe I could get him to the end. Maybe we could collect all 12. Maybe I could get him out and then work on Terezi, Karkat, Nepeta, Psiionic--even if he doesn't want my help."

She shakes her head, "Maybe I get it because I understand what she wants. She didn't give it up to be led to her noose, she doesn't want to die. She just wants to help everyone else. Sure she's dumb as shit about it sometimes but she meant so well. I told her none of us want to be on the outside looking in, none of us want to watch our friends die again and again. Just--talk to her okay? She wants to apologize, I know it, she does. Just don't yell at her this time? I mean, I wasn't there, but I can assume you yelled. You do that when you get angry."
disciplewhomsignlessloves: (Cause I'm a hopeless wanderer)

[personal profile] disciplewhomsignlessloves 2014-05-26 07:14 pm (UTC)(link)
At his gaze, she feels herself stiffen, head raising up and eyes meeting his. Again she has to wonder about the doppelganger across the water, what he thinks of their fights, of the harsh words. The way they stand apart. She needs to talk to Signless or Kankri, she thinks in passing, before her attention flits back to him before her.

"Take the time to calm, it's better for her anyways. If she comes to you before then, at least tell her you'll talk to her another time. She..." Disciple pauses, shakes her head and rolls what he says around in her head. Musing over it, how to respond.

"I know. Truly, I do? I don't want to see her die, watch her, but I won't give up the hope that I can't survive and have my people. Why was I brought here, in the end, if not for the second chances. If things are fate--I never thought they were, but if they are--then isn't it fate that I meet people I knew were dead or gone, people I couldn't have survived long enough to meet? People I would never have met? I don't think fate is that cruel, to give me these chances and make them all for naught. To torment me again by giving me things only to see them die."

And she admits aloud something she might never have to him, "Life was cruel enough to us, wasn't it? Why would it give us cruelty all over again. Second chances to find someone. Isn't that why you found Psiionic? I think this is a chance to change things. If death is permanent at home, isn't the impermanence of death a chance?"
disciplewhomsignlessloves: (Hold me fast; Cause)

[personal profile] disciplewhomsignlessloves 2014-05-27 08:35 pm (UTC)(link)
She doesn't let the relief color her expression, not yet, but it must reflect in her body language. The way tension she didn't know she was holding released and she lets her gaze shift from him.

"...It doesn't seem like we could help it. Cruelty was life on Alternia. Take all your chances to have something else." She doesn't mention the rest of what is spoken. He won't waste it and that's the important part. Talking more on it will just ruin it, she thinks.

"As long as we aren't at each others throats, I should go. Most calm we've been in a conversation since we started this whole game nonsense." She half smiles, aware that even mentioning this might ruin it, might make him go on guard again or her go on guard, so it's best to just press past it.

"I'll leave you to your menagerie of indigos over there."
disciplewhomsignlessloves: (I will share your road)

[personal profile] disciplewhomsignlessloves 2014-05-28 04:34 am (UTC)(link)
She furrows her brow, trying to understand what he's asking. Her eyes glance across to the alternate mentioned. He might hear them, he might not, she wonders if it matters. Her nose wrinkles a little as she lets her voice drop a few notches in volume, softer than before.

"I don't...what do you mean? He told me--in his little gestures, that he was red for my other--my alternate. He used some sort of gestures before then. Like maybe that's how he and I--the other me--communicated? But I don't know what they meant." She mimics the most basic one, before she realizes that he can see and lets her hands fall, "But he didn't...gesture anything about the other me or anything more. Even asking just sort of got glossed over I guess? Just tried to play a game with me. Tried to touch the jewelry in my ears."

Which was odd in and of itself.
disciplewhomsignlessloves: (I will share your road)

[personal profile] disciplewhomsignlessloves 2014-05-30 03:05 am (UTC)(link)
Oh. The space between her eyebrows furrows. Visions, she's heard of. What could Signless and his rememberence of his other life be anything but visions. She skips over it, focusing on the content, not the way it came about.

Her hands raise to her ears as she tries to imagine a sound so piercing and overwhelming as to render her deaf. She can't. It's impossible, she thinks, especially to imagine it coming from that indigo across the water.

"Wait--he did it because he deafened me? Or--the other me." Time is confusing, past lives more so. She drops her hands, shakes her head, disbelief.

"No--No offense but that doesn't sound like something you would do. Not even Signless would do that. Remorse, begging forgiveness, not silencing oneself forever--oh. That's why he made those gestures wasn't it? That's the way to communicate if I can't hear?"

She's almost too caught up in that realization, how perfectly it fits into the strangeness that was her last week, to thinks about what he might have revealed to her. She shakes her head again.

"Nothing beyond what I've told you. He made gestures occasionally but he let me talk more than he tried to communicate." She hesitates, "It's not a help, I know."
disciplewhomsignlessloves: (Cause I'm a hopeless wanderer)

[personal profile] disciplewhomsignlessloves 2014-06-02 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
She wrinkles her nose at the mention of his future--of visions. No, she never knew the Grand Highblood to have such powers. His powers were definitely more than enough as they were. He needed little else.

"None that those beneath you ever spoke of." Her gaze shifts, away, distant as she briefly sifts through the memories. The time spent in the clutches of the Subjuggulators was hardly time she tried to remember. If someone had spoke of it, of visions, it wouldn't have been to the heretical disciple of Signless. Most definitely not when there was torture and tormenting to be done.

"Not that I was privy to such things. Either way, it's a mystery I doubt will be solved before he leaves." If he leaves. She feels bad for hoping he does. That smile with stitches stretched is unnerving, but the strange misplaced affection is even more unnerving.
disciplewhomsignlessloves: (And hold me fast)

[personal profile] disciplewhomsignlessloves 2014-06-05 09:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh--She messed up again. It hurts a little, for a moment, before she discards the thought. She wasn't to know what he meant. Not a few games ago, he would have brought it up to taunt. Then again, she might have brought up something as well. The brief hurt-guilt-uncertainty flashes across her face in mere moments before she composes herself.

"I didn't think--it's painful memories. The only time we met previous to this kidnapping was in brief flashes--seeing you before we ran--and our capture. We were not exactly hive guests. If you had deafened someone, I think that would have made into the stories people told of you as well. Always more ways to breed fear I would think."

And she's not saying it right again, the bitterness is seeping through, the hurt, and she shakes her head, "So no, I think you are safe."

Her hand is curling into the fur of her lusus, at the base of the mane, even as the lion opens its jaws wide to yawn.

"I'm going to go."
disciplewhomsignlessloves: (But hold me fast; Hold me fast)

[personal profile] disciplewhomsignlessloves 2014-06-15 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
She doesn't reply at first, listening with quiet intent. She doesn't understand everything he says--but the basics perhaps. She's indescribably linked to Signless and it taints his view of her, from the moment he knew what her title was and what it meant. Slowly they split, she makes herself a person outside of him and she wonders if Terezi talks about her ever because it reminds her of the way Terezi can dislike Signless yet be pale for her. It makes her cheeks flush, not that he's really looking for it. So much of her life is tied up in Signless that she forgets sometimes that she can be seen without a film of mutant red.

"It's not your fault. We were all painted with the same brush. And he...I don't know what happened, if you give me a chance where you give him none. But thank you?"

She pauses, smiles half heartedly, "Good luck."
disciplewhomsignlessloves: (You know that there’s no place for us)

de ends

[personal profile] disciplewhomsignlessloves 2014-06-15 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
She pauses, watches him for a moment, then turns and goes. Leaving him to his own devices as she ponders her own new set of thoughts.