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Dave Strider ([personal profile] shenunigans) wrote in [community profile] thecapitol2014-04-03 11:48 pm

open spectator log because why not

Who| Anyone who wants to spectate but doesn't want to make a million logs
What| Spectations, spectactling, spectalary. Gathering together to cross fingers and watch the mini arena.
Where| The Commons
When| All through the mini-arena. However many hours people feel the need to watch.
Warnings/Notes| Watching your friends die, kind of a huge bummer.

In one of the many tasteful bursts of helpfulness the Capitolites are prone to having, the commons are full of bowls of snacks and drinks. Popcorn or many varieties, candy and drinks are spread across the table, as if it's a delightful addition to the decorum right now. In another bout of helpfulness, there's also over a dozen tissue boxes spread across the room, nested between couches and chairs. Basically, it's all super tasteful.

It's probably a little sickening watching the Arena on the screens in the common room, but it's hard not to keep a close eye on your friends. Surely some people will opt to keep their viewing in private, but perhaps others are inclined to gravitate toward other people while this shit goes all the way down.

As far as parties go, this one is a real stinker.
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] paidinbeer 2014-04-05 04:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Satisfied that Howard wasn't going to try and run Orc took a seat on the floor and it was almost amusing to see that even sitting on the floor he was about as tall as Howard in that chair.

"Eponine wanted to die, so she convinced R to bite her...or nagged at him to do it. Whatever. Then she got scared about dieing alone so when I found her she begged to bite me too. So I let her do it." Not high on his list of best ideas.

"But I still hadn't settled things with you, so I got one of those mask things and get my rocks back. It slowed the zombie thing down but not enough. I saw on TV later how my zombie tried to eat you. Then Shephard blew me up."

That was really the only way to describe the unholy beatdown Shephard had delivered unto his animated corpse.

"I'm glad I didn't eat you." He concluded with a stoic nod.
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] iselldrugstothecommunity 2014-04-05 04:50 pm (UTC)(link)
There's a simplicity to the way Orc explains things that's both enraging and beyond traditional feelings of anger. What's the point, when there are no questions to be asked? What were you thinking? would be purely rhetorical, because the answer is right there.

"Pretty glad you didn't eat me too." The way he died wasn't painless, but it's been preferable to the ones that came before.

Here's the thing - Howard can hold a grudge like no one's business. But he and Orc have been friends through everything. Howard's literally buried a body for Orc. Orc gave a kid pushing Howard around such a bad black eye he had to go to the hospital. Howard's had Orc spend the night at his house when Orc showed up with a busted nose, no questions asked. Howard's washed Orc off when he was covered in booze-stinking vomit and Orc's picked Howard up and put him on a bed when Howard's fainted from dehydration. There's a bond there that the Capitol is trying to saw away that seems just a bit too tough for the usual theatrics to fray.

So Howard says "I didn't mean it, you know, what I said back in the Arena. I was just mad and saying whatever I could to be an asshole."
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] paidinbeer 2014-04-05 05:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Orc considered the words for a moment and looked hopeful before he sighed and shook his head.

"I dunno what I know man." And he was glad that sounded just as intelligent coming out of his mouth as it had sounded in his head.

"It felt like you meant it, even if I dunno why you meant it. So you didn't mean it when you said you were done with Eponine?"
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] iselldrugstothecommunity 2014-04-07 04:29 am (UTC)(link)
"I was mad because, you know. There's supposed to be bro-code. You know." It's something of a verbal tic, as if he's trying to usher Orc along to the right conclusion. "Me and her made up. We're friends now. I mean, I'm not going to be happy about it, but I won't flip the hell out again if you date her."
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] paidinbeer 2014-04-07 06:26 am (UTC)(link)
"Someone oughta write down the bro-code then." Because it had never seemed like something that would come up till now.

And as for making up with her? Orc's craggy brow rose in suspicion. He always used to just accept anything Howard said. But even Orc had to learn sooner or later.

"Have you made up with R too?"
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] iselldrugstothecommunity 2014-04-07 08:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Howard freezes, takes one of those long pauses. "I think R's still mad at me. He didn't get it, okay? I was trying to do him a favor, he was all hurt and moaning like Brittney was in our basement..."

And he curls more into himself, suddenly (temporarily) bereft of appetite.
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] paidinbeer 2014-04-08 09:32 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yeah but R didn't want your favor." Orc leaned forward trying to keep Howard's gaze with his own beady little eyes.

"You screwed up. You should apologize and do whatever it takes to make things right."

The part Orc did not say out loud was If that's possible. Because if Howard had done something to take away Orc's humanity the way that death had taken R's from him, Orc wasn't sure even their friendship would survive it let alone would there be any forgiveness.
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] iselldrugstothecommunity 2014-04-09 09:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Howard leans back. He can't help it. He can't hold Orc's gaze.

"This is between him and me, Orc." It sounds weak, whiny coming from him now, but Orc had to know it wasn't the easy decision, didn't he? "Would you have just left him in the bottom of a stairwell waiting to die in pain? I thought that was what he was asking me for!"
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] paidinbeer 2014-04-09 09:24 pm (UTC)(link)
"No." Orc grumbled "I'm your friend, and his friend. So that means it's my business too."

And Orc had long since learned that when you were as big as he was, you could make anyone's business your business.

"You didn't kill me when I was begging for it. What makes this any different?" And he had begged, many times back in the FAYZ.
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] iselldrugstothecommunity 2014-04-09 09:30 pm (UTC)(link)
"Because then what would happen to me? You were going to leave me alone in the FAYZ and you didn't even care what happened afterwards, was that it?"

Something about Howard looks frantic now, desperate, the clinginess shading him with a certain awful pallor. It's not just the memory of the harsh times, of practically being Orc's life support, of Howard's own flirtation with just...not, anymore. Just not being. Poofing on his fifteenth and being done with it.

It's the idea of a life without Orc or other people to hide behind and lean on.
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] paidinbeer 2014-04-09 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
"It's not always about you." Orc answered calmly. "I should have been thinking about you sure. But you should have been thinking about R. You're his friend."

Hypocritical perhaps but Orc had been called worse.

"Just admit you screwed up."
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] iselldrugstothecommunity 2014-04-10 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
"Now you're just changing the conversation!" Because Howard totally wasn't taking refuge in turning his upset onto Orc. "I did what I thought was best. What else am I supposed to do? Sorry I can't psychically tell that someone who's moaning in pain and not getting better doesn't want to come back to the Capitol?"
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] paidinbeer 2014-04-10 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
As much as it felt wrong, the way Howard was arguing it was hard to disagree with.

"Just admit you screwed up so we can move on." Orc pressed. "It's not the worst thing we've done."

He could have said the worse thing "You've" done but Orc didn't want to start running down a list of things that Howard had done that was morally questionable. So including himself made it easier to swallow. Together they had done plenty of awful things.

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Re: Orc

[personal profile] iselldrugstothecommunity 2014-04-13 08:42 pm (UTC)(link)
"Fine, fine! I tried to do my best and it's never good enough." That's the closest Orc will likely get today. Howard folds his arms and huddles into himself. He glares daggers at Orc and swallows back a rather cutting comment he could make about which of them has done worse.
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] paidinbeer 2014-04-14 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
"Don't pout." He grumbled taking a seat on the floor and still only being about an inch lower then Howard.

"That wasn't your best. I've seen your best. You're better then...whatever the games is turning you into." He tried to explain in his simple sort of way.

"You're better then me. You use, you don't get used."

There was no malice or accusation in the statement that Howard was, and should be a user. If anything this was supposed to be encouragement.
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] iselldrugstothecommunity 2014-04-17 04:13 am (UTC)(link)
"The Games isn't turning me into anything. It's just ripping pieces out." He's getting smaller, not shifting but shrinking. That's how it feels, anyway.

He forgot Orc's penchant for blunt, brutal honesty. It sends a shiver up his spine.

"I already told you I'm sorry for yelling at you. I already talked to R. I don't know what you want from me."
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] paidinbeer 2014-04-20 02:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Orc meanwhile was taking it to heart. If Howard felt like he was being ripped to bits then Orc would have to put those pieces back together.

"I want you to stop running. From me and everything else you don't wanna deal with. It doesn't work, you're the one who taught me that." All the drinking in the world couldn't help Orc outrun his problems.
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] iselldrugstothecommunity 2014-04-22 03:11 am (UTC)(link)
"I'm not running." Howard scrunches up the corners of his mouth. "Got nowhere to go."

He looks at Orc's beady eyes with his own, rimmed with exhaustion and frustration, older than any fifteen year-old's should be. "What, you saying I should do talk therapy or something?"
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] paidinbeer 2014-04-22 08:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Actually that was a better idea then whatever Orc had been pawing at so he decided to go with it.

"Well why not? You gotta try something. And it's not like no one can relate to what you're going through." Orc actually sounded more confident with that proposal. He was starting to think maybe he actually knew what he was doing for a change.
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] iselldrugstothecommunity 2014-04-24 06:18 am (UTC)(link)
"That's a dumb idea." Howard bristles and pouts and scowls and just generally looks unpleasant. "Talking about my feelings isn't going to keep people from getting killed in the Arena. Or get my petition out of here approved."
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] paidinbeer 2014-04-24 10:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Orc's craggy features broke into a frown and he loomed closer at Howard as if that would help him get his point across.

"Is it a dumb idea because I think you should do it? Or is it a dumb idea because you don't wanna do it?"

"It's about making you feel better, not saving other peoples lives. It's about saving you."
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] iselldrugstothecommunity 2014-04-28 05:56 am (UTC)(link)
"You're not dumb. It has nothing to do with you being behind it. It's just dumb because can you imagine talking yourself out of all this?"

Honestly, Orc sounds like he's been hitting that Bible again. Or reading inspirational posters. The thought almost makes Howard laugh, but he knows it would be a cruel sound, so he doesn't.

"Are you gonna talk therapy your way out of your problems?"
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] paidinbeer 2014-04-28 03:36 pm (UTC)(link)
"I already am." He gestured to the crowd around them.

"People help me here. They talk to me and make me think about the stuff I did. What I'm doing."

People like Shephard, Ian, Eponine and Wyatt. Even Diana.

"You have people here that care about you. You need to learn how to do that again. They can show you how."
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] iselldrugstothecommunity 2014-04-30 11:55 pm (UTC)(link)
"That's not the same as seeing a shrink." And to tell the truth, it makes Howard uneasy, to think that Orc's making connections with other people. As if he's about to become superfluous. He holds onto the armrest of the chair as if it's a life preserver.

"I know how to care about me. I'm petitioning out after all."
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Re: Orc

[personal profile] paidinbeer 2014-05-03 02:45 pm (UTC)(link)
"And what if you don't get out?"

Because that was a very real possibility.

"Will you be able to stay standing if they force you into another arena? And another? How many more will you be able to take doing things this way?"