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thecapitol2013-08-07 07:50 am
mediumdrip) wrote in thecapitol2013-08-07 07:50 am
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indisposed in disguise
Who| Blaine and OPEN
What| Blaine lost three good friends (Diana, Atticus and Lottie), watched his own body rot away, and was killed a little more violently this time around. He's not okay in the head but he'll be damned if he lets you know that. Too bad his mask might be cracking.
Where| Tribute Tower. Three settings; District 2 Suites, Boxing Area in Training Center and Common Mess Hall
When| Final week of the Arena
Warnings/Notes| Blaine's a little broken. I'll add warnings as needed.
[District 2 Suites]
When Blaine woke up he took a shower and paid extra attention to his hair. The movements of the comb as he flattened out his curls was almost therapeutic. Each time he slid it's teeth through the black strands he felt himself getting a little more control. There were dark circles under his eyes, but he knew how to use the products of the Capitol by now and it was surprisingly easy to cover them up.
He had been back in the Capitol long enough now to know that he couldn't find Lottie, Atticus or Diana. He knew sometimes people didn't come back because he had seen posts on the network about it before. He had convinced himself that it wouldn't happen to the people that he knew though. They couldn't be among the unlucky. Diana had been a sure win for Victory. Lottie was popular because she was so flirty and fun. He and Atticus could play up their matching faces for the camera, and hadn't the werewolf and Kurt provided enough heartbreaking entertainment for the way that they stuck together? What did these Capitol people even want if it wasn't a good show?
It hurt to think about that, so instead he focused on his hair. He flattened it until it was stuck to his hair, all hint of curls hidden away. He couldn't look like Atticus right now because that hurt too.
He gathered up work out clothes and folded them carefully into a duffel bag before leaving his room. A cheerful enough expression was plastered onto his face as he walked through the Suite. He planned to get to the Training Center as quickly as possible, but he also did his best to not seem opposed to the idea of stopping and taking to his Suite mates.
[Boxing in Training Center]
He didn't eat breakfast. Instead he went right down to the Training Center. The gel here was even better than the stuff back home as he could work out and sweat without a single curl breaking free. He supposed he ought to be grateful for that, just as much as he should be for finally becoming a star.
He picked out a bag and wrapped his hands in tape before he started to hit it. Each time he let a fist land against the bag he considered all of the things the Capitol would expect him to be grateful about.
Hair gel. Good food. Clothing. His face on TV.
The honor of being killed for their entertainment.
His face was focused entirely on the bag as he pounded away at it, imagining himself with the ability to push each of those things away.
[Common Mess Hall]
After working out, Blaine really needed to eat something. He had been careful to clean himself up and was dressed as impeccably as ever. He sat with his back to the screens, not wanting to watch any more death. It was surprisingly hard, as they seemed to want to display the Games everywhere.
It probably would have been smarter to eat in his room, but he still was holding out the hope that he'd see one of his missing friends.
What| Blaine lost three good friends (Diana, Atticus and Lottie), watched his own body rot away, and was killed a little more violently this time around. He's not okay in the head but he'll be damned if he lets you know that. Too bad his mask might be cracking.
Where| Tribute Tower. Three settings; District 2 Suites, Boxing Area in Training Center and Common Mess Hall
When| Final week of the Arena
Warnings/Notes| Blaine's a little broken. I'll add warnings as needed.
[District 2 Suites]
When Blaine woke up he took a shower and paid extra attention to his hair. The movements of the comb as he flattened out his curls was almost therapeutic. Each time he slid it's teeth through the black strands he felt himself getting a little more control. There were dark circles under his eyes, but he knew how to use the products of the Capitol by now and it was surprisingly easy to cover them up.
He had been back in the Capitol long enough now to know that he couldn't find Lottie, Atticus or Diana. He knew sometimes people didn't come back because he had seen posts on the network about it before. He had convinced himself that it wouldn't happen to the people that he knew though. They couldn't be among the unlucky. Diana had been a sure win for Victory. Lottie was popular because she was so flirty and fun. He and Atticus could play up their matching faces for the camera, and hadn't the werewolf and Kurt provided enough heartbreaking entertainment for the way that they stuck together? What did these Capitol people even want if it wasn't a good show?
It hurt to think about that, so instead he focused on his hair. He flattened it until it was stuck to his hair, all hint of curls hidden away. He couldn't look like Atticus right now because that hurt too.
He gathered up work out clothes and folded them carefully into a duffel bag before leaving his room. A cheerful enough expression was plastered onto his face as he walked through the Suite. He planned to get to the Training Center as quickly as possible, but he also did his best to not seem opposed to the idea of stopping and taking to his Suite mates.
[Boxing in Training Center]
He didn't eat breakfast. Instead he went right down to the Training Center. The gel here was even better than the stuff back home as he could work out and sweat without a single curl breaking free. He supposed he ought to be grateful for that, just as much as he should be for finally becoming a star.
He picked out a bag and wrapped his hands in tape before he started to hit it. Each time he let a fist land against the bag he considered all of the things the Capitol would expect him to be grateful about.
Hair gel. Good food. Clothing. His face on TV.
The honor of being killed for their entertainment.
His face was focused entirely on the bag as he pounded away at it, imagining himself with the ability to push each of those things away.
[Common Mess Hall]
After working out, Blaine really needed to eat something. He had been careful to clean himself up and was dressed as impeccably as ever. He sat with his back to the screens, not wanting to watch any more death. It was surprisingly hard, as they seemed to want to display the Games everywhere.
It probably would have been smarter to eat in his room, but he still was holding out the hope that he'd see one of his missing friends.
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"Yes. I think everyone should deal with what they're given. I didn't say anything about how they should use what they're given."
Holiday shifted in her seat, eager to make him understand. "Let's take you for example. You've been given your ex. From the sounds of it, you still care very much for him. A gift like that could very easily be abused by the Capitol. If you step out of line, they could kill him, torture him. They could do the same to you to punish him if he were to step out of line.
"The point is that the Capitol knows this and they fear it. They don't see our loved ones as weaknesses, they see them for what they are--a source of power and hope. You're stronger for his being here because it drives you to survival. They'll want to take that away if you go down the wrong path, but love is more than just life and death... Do you understand?"
It was putting her political standpoint in the open, but she's kind of known for doing that lately. If she wanted to hide, she should have started months ago.
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"I think so," he said.
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"I wish you luck in the next arena."
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"Same to you," Blaine said. "It was nice meeting you." She had cheered him up, and that should have been impossible.
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She didn't say they would, because they probably won't.
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"I do, too. I'll see you around, Blaine." She liked the guy and she did intend to speak to him again.
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As she left, he focused back on his meal, and tried to convince himself that things weren't as bad as they seemed. To do that, he had to ignore the voice in the back of his mind that kept whispering that actually it was much, much worse.