She smirks and laughs to herself, though the thoughts in her head are bitter and selfish. At least she knows that, and so she laughs anyway, "Doesn't seem fair, really. Do you know what I think of, every night as I lay in my ridiculous bed? I think about how many people I'm letting down. By just... not being there. Its selfish. To think that just my absence alone has any effect on anything? But I can't shake it."