Keep Burning Like We're Never Gonna Die [Closed]

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Who| Linden Lockhearst and Jason Compson
What| Two sick assholes being assholes
Where| The doctor's office
When| Before the blind dating!
Warnings/Notes| Swearing at least, drug and alcohol references, and all that usually comes with Jason and Linden



The doctor stares down the man sitting in front of her. "You're not the first Mentor in Panem to ruin his health, but you take self-destruction to a new level entirely. When I asked you to give me some kind of sign that you were going to turn things around, I didn't mean to come in with a blood alcohol content of .08."

Linden rubs at his forehead. "I'm not even buzzed," he says.

"Your liver is failing."

"I cope with failure by drinking," he sighs. "I know that you're not that kind of doctor, but please try to understand that."

"Lockhearst, please try to understand that it's not a laughing matter. Roll up your sleeves, we need a few more vials of blood."

Linden complies, but after several fruitless attempts, the doctor puts the needles aside. "Your veins are bad anyway, but you're also dehydrated and I can't work with that. I'm going to see my next patient while you sit in the waiting room and do something to help yourself, for once." She hands him a bottle of water, leaving him to stand and shuffle back out to the waiting room like a lost, alcoholic child where he sits and sulks and occasionally takes sips off the top. Every now and then, he glances at the undersides of his arms, which, as a result of all this recent blood work, look a hell of a lot like fresh track marks.

"Mom," a kid whispers across the waiting room, staring at Linden with huge eyes. "Is that a Victor?"

No, I'm sorry, you're mistaken. That's a loser.

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Linden realizes that in this childish, ridiculous, demented game of who can get the bigger rise, he's just landed a catch more formidable than he can actually reel in. And he's not strong or fast enough to avoid the fallout even if he just lets go of the rod. His eyes go wide as he's seized by the collar, which is dangerously close to his scarred neck, and a shrill ringing in his ears obfuscates the man's hissed insistence of his mother's actual nature. His body might be falling apart organ by organ, but it still responds to this. Adrenaline lends him temporary fight-or-flight acuity, much like it did the first time Jason grabbed Linden suddenly and unwittingly put him back in his Arena.

Also like that first time, this promises to end unfortunately.

As the woman starts to move toward the reception desk, Linden's reaction is panicked, swift and violent. His fingers wrap around Jason's wrist and he's burying his teeth into the man's hand, bracing a heel against his ribs and digging it in sharply in an attempt to force distance between them.

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"Jesus!" Jason shoves Linden away with a reaction that could only be credited to instinct and not intent, and he strikes with his other hand to get Linden to open his jaw. He backhands Linden right in that bulging yellowed eye, hitting with the kind of viciousness that comes from not being trained in any sort of fighting and thus not knowing how to prevent injury to yourself or others.

"Gentlemen, gentlemen, calm down!" The epithet seems ironic, given the nature of their quarrel and their injuries, but the security guards separate them, one man on each, one holding each back even though the fight dissipated as soon as they were no longer making physical contact.

"He bit me! What the hell, are you a goddamn animal?" Jason doesn't fight against the security guard, instead pulling his hand close to his face to see the bloody ring of toothmarks with indignant awe. "He fucking bit me!"

"And you grabbed him. Now let's all calm down before you both get kicked off the premises, Compson."

The child scrambles from under his mother's legs to get a better view of the action, exhilarated. He looks as if he doesn't know who to root for, the Capitolite or the Victor, but having grown up on a steady diet of the Games he shoots Linden a winning beam.

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The shove doesn't immediately dislodge Linden; his teeth are clenched tight on the other man's hand, and it's also instinctive and desperate and blinded to humanity and reason. It's, in short, the kind of thing that Arenas will do to people, and it's only after getting socked in the eye that he's dazedly withdrawing. No... that's wrong, he's being withdrawn, pried away from Jason by a security guard much stronger than he is.

He tastes blood, but it isn't his. As his scrawny, trembling body is held back and away, he catches that child's grin and it's like someone's taken a sledgehammer to his chest. He'd helped kill Tributes not so much older than this kid, who doesn't see the Games as a death sentence, but grand entertainment, and that's how he interprets this scene. In actuality, with the giddy blindfold of youth and naivety lifted away, it's two very sick men in an appalling situation.

Linden no longer wants to fight or even needle Jason with taunts. He wants to go back to the tower and sleep like he's dead, which he might actually be way sooner than he'd thought. The gravity of it sinks in all at once, and he responds to the plea to calm down by going almost totally limp. His eye hurts, and he can already feel it swelling, and shit, Lockhearst, you're finally actually dying.

"I don't want to go back to jail," he mumbles brokenly.

The security guards exchange glances and sighs. "Uh. Well, maybe shake hands. Amicably agree to apologize to each other, and to the establishment for causing a scene."

Linden appears to be genuinely and thoroughly considering whether a night in jail would actually be worse.

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"I'm not touching him. It's bad enough that I'm probably infected with whatever Districter bacteria he carries in his mouth," Jason says, pacing animalistically behind the wall of a security guard's body. He runs his hands through his hair and licks his lips. Any veneer of society has been ripped away, and the guards and the child and the mother see him for what he is - desperate, unhinged, confirmation of the suspicions people have about the polluted, sludge-like blood of the old families. "I don't care about putting him in jail, obviously that didn't do a damn thing last time, I don't understand why we don't just round up his kind and shoot them-"

"Well, you're going to have to suck it up and at least apologize, if you want to stay here-"

"Why the hell would I want to stay here?" Jason wraps his hand in his suit jacket, not even caring that he's bleeding all over it or in a medical clinic where he could probably ask for a bandage. He keeps looking around frantically, as if for an exit. "I don't want to be here. Do you think I'd be here if I weren't forced? Do you think I want to be here in this cramped little office with District drug addicts talking back to their betters and someone to laugh behind my back while they bleed me dry for mandatory therapy and drugs I don't want to-"

"Compson, calm down or we'll have to take you into custody."

"I'm calm, I'm plenty calm, I just got bitten by a Districter-" Jason's voice keens high and hysterical. The security guards look at each other.

"Compson, go home. You'll get rescheduled. You'll issue an apology this week. Stay here a minute longer or you're looking at an arrest."

Jason pauses, breathing heavy, hands curled like an infant's up in his scalp. "Fine."

He slams the door as he storms out the waiting room.

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Linden's jaw is slowly dropping as he witnesses what is, very clearly, an aging Dynasty brat going supernova in a waiting room. Why he's here for a psych evaluation is blatantly obvious to everyone, and even though Linden is the one who's largely being supported by the security guard holding him with another human being's blood on his teeth and lips, Jason's the one the entire office is staring at as if he's insane.

He's too stunned to even be offended that he's just demanded that "Linden's kind" is systematically executed (aren't they, already?). He can't process it as quickly as it's happening, with the thrum of toxic blood in his ears finally starting to ebb from the fading adrenaline that had been coursing through his system just moments prior.

As Jason storms out of the office, he reaches for his water bottle. "Um. I need to have some bloodwork done. If I just... sit here, quietly, can I stay? I... want to be here because I want to be well."

The security guard lets him go. "Sounds perfectly sane and reasonable to me. What the hell got into Compson, anyway?"

"I have no idea," Linden says, wincing as he lowers himself into his seat again and uncaps his water bottle. "Anyway, I hope he comes back eventually and gets the help he clearly needs."