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Flecks of the Heavens' Spat Out Spit [OPEN]
WHO| Jason Compson and Open; Jason and Swann; Jason, Rick and Daryl
WHAT| Jason gets a migraine and is helpless; Jason beats an Avox; Jason gives Swann a gift; Rick and Daryl get the shotguns.
WHEN| Week 6
WHERE| D7 Suites; Swann's place
WARNINGS/NOTES| Avox abuse, migraines, general Jason awfulness. If you're going to tag the second prompt, please PP or PM me first so we can figure out where it's going and how far to take it, because Jason won't hesitate to put someone in jail.
I. Open
He knew he was going to have one of his headaches from the beginning of the morning, when every light seemed to have a ring radiating off of it and everything seemed to smell like rainwater. The one upside to the curse of these migraines is that he usually gets a few hours head start on them, with the feeling of deadly premonition, and so he spends most of the day trying to finish up everything as quickly as he can and clock out early. The calls to Sponsors and thank you cards to donors becomes a race against time, one which he sees himself losing too late to actually prevent disaster.
First he can't see, and then he can't move. Even breathing seems to put too much strain on him, and the throbbing, tightening hammering in his head gets worse with every exhale. The inside of his body feels like a live wire, sparking away inside his skull at camera-shutter speed. Nausea roils inside his throat and stomach, furling and unfurling like the tide.
When he opens his eyes the light is too bright, speckled with floating spots and halos, and he feels like the universe itself is trying to cram itself through his eyesockets and that his bones have made the opening too small to fit. So he keeps them shut and rolls over on the District Seven couch until he's facedown in a pillow, sweating slightly, trying not to whimper.
He has no hope of driving himself home, and even the idea of getting up seems a cruel joke. He tries twice, and both times a surge of nausea and a thunderclap of pain force him back down. So he lies there, hoping to whatever powers that be that his Tributes stick to their schedules and don't come bother him.
II. Open (please read note)
What started off as a strong Arena quickly loses those good odds as the District Seven Tributes die in the field and the District Suite gets repopulated. The worse it looks, the worse Jason's temper gets, until he's liable to throw something at the slightest provocation, which the Games video updates seem eager to supply him with. At least twice this week he's broken a glass, and yesterday smacked a table so hard that he has a ring of bruising around his finger like a wedding band.
With only Nick left in the Arena, Jason and Emily's chances are getting desperate, and the worst blow comes to Jason's ego when he realizes that no amount of fawning and flattery and networking seems to be enough to get Nick more supplies in the Arena. It stings to feel powerlessness, and to make it worse the only person willing to spot Nick a fire-starting kit's funds will only do it on condition that Jason go drinking with him - no sobriety allowed. Jason turns it down, but doesn't leave with his head held high so much as rankled and humiliated, and every ungrateful glance from his Tributes reminds him of how his family used to practically own this damn country and yet here he is, exposing his belly to anyone with money, helpless and inept and so, so frustrated with his life. Dressed in a suit he got from someone else's charity and supporting a home full of ingrates and lonely and with a fury as endless as the sky.
Whatever it is that set Jason off this time, it isn't sated just by smashing a piece of kitchenware. This time he backhands the Avox who rushes in to try and clean up the coffee mug he throws against the floor, sending them into the couch.
III. Swann
For someone who usually agonizes over every half-assi that goes to a necessary cause, Jason doesn't seem to mind spending money on Swann. He complains about it, at times, but it's more to go through the motions of complaining than because it actually bothers him. He buys her coffee when he can and tells her to save her money when they get lunch, getting sulky and defensive when she insists on splitting the tab. Sometimes he buys her a pastry on his way to pick her up for carpooling, although he doesn't let her eat it in the vehicle, and he has yet to ask her to help pay for fuel.
Today he shows up at her place with a large carrier in the back of his car, covered by a blanket, with a towel underneath it to protect the seats. Something inside is making scratching sounds. Jason looks a little frazzled, and shows up a few minutes late from a different route than he usually takes. He presses a button inside the car and the door opens for Swann.
"You coming, Honeymead?"
IV. Daryl and Rick
The rumors spread quickly after the Crowning, and all of them rub Jason the wrong way. A few photographs of him and Beth at the Crowning, him whispering into her ear, have made the rounds on tabloids, some of them even frontpage for the publications hungry enough to fabricate a scandal for readership. Jason's certain that he wouldn't ever touch a Tribute like that, but the fact that people are so eager to believe it of him leaves his pride feeling excoriated.
For his part, Jason doesn't treat Beth any differently, except for being a bit more stiff and cranky with her than he might have been before. But whispers swarm around them like a plague of mosquitoes, making a to-do out of something as simple as him Escorting her to a photoshoot with horses (A PONY FOR A PRICE?, a headline questions; another goes even more outrageous and wonders if Beth will say 'neigh' to marriage). He can only imagine the explanations she's making to the passel of Southerners who seem so eager to protect her.
Right now he's in the District Seven kitchen, glasses parked precariously on the tip of his nose as he writes by hand some math for the District budget. He's taken to putting most of his notes on his phone lately; he used to be able to leave writing around, but that was when most Tributes were entirely illiterate. His suit jacket hangs over the back of a chair and his shirt sleeves are pushed up to his elbows. A cup of coffee, long-cooled, sits beside him, and he occasionally asks his phone to answer some percentages questions for him.
WHAT| Jason gets a migraine and is helpless; Jason beats an Avox; Jason gives Swann a gift; Rick and Daryl get the shotguns.
WHEN| Week 6
WHERE| D7 Suites; Swann's place
WARNINGS/NOTES| Avox abuse, migraines, general Jason awfulness. If you're going to tag the second prompt, please PP or PM me first so we can figure out where it's going and how far to take it, because Jason won't hesitate to put someone in jail.
I. Open
He knew he was going to have one of his headaches from the beginning of the morning, when every light seemed to have a ring radiating off of it and everything seemed to smell like rainwater. The one upside to the curse of these migraines is that he usually gets a few hours head start on them, with the feeling of deadly premonition, and so he spends most of the day trying to finish up everything as quickly as he can and clock out early. The calls to Sponsors and thank you cards to donors becomes a race against time, one which he sees himself losing too late to actually prevent disaster.
First he can't see, and then he can't move. Even breathing seems to put too much strain on him, and the throbbing, tightening hammering in his head gets worse with every exhale. The inside of his body feels like a live wire, sparking away inside his skull at camera-shutter speed. Nausea roils inside his throat and stomach, furling and unfurling like the tide.
When he opens his eyes the light is too bright, speckled with floating spots and halos, and he feels like the universe itself is trying to cram itself through his eyesockets and that his bones have made the opening too small to fit. So he keeps them shut and rolls over on the District Seven couch until he's facedown in a pillow, sweating slightly, trying not to whimper.
He has no hope of driving himself home, and even the idea of getting up seems a cruel joke. He tries twice, and both times a surge of nausea and a thunderclap of pain force him back down. So he lies there, hoping to whatever powers that be that his Tributes stick to their schedules and don't come bother him.
II. Open (please read note)
What started off as a strong Arena quickly loses those good odds as the District Seven Tributes die in the field and the District Suite gets repopulated. The worse it looks, the worse Jason's temper gets, until he's liable to throw something at the slightest provocation, which the Games video updates seem eager to supply him with. At least twice this week he's broken a glass, and yesterday smacked a table so hard that he has a ring of bruising around his finger like a wedding band.
With only Nick left in the Arena, Jason and Emily's chances are getting desperate, and the worst blow comes to Jason's ego when he realizes that no amount of fawning and flattery and networking seems to be enough to get Nick more supplies in the Arena. It stings to feel powerlessness, and to make it worse the only person willing to spot Nick a fire-starting kit's funds will only do it on condition that Jason go drinking with him - no sobriety allowed. Jason turns it down, but doesn't leave with his head held high so much as rankled and humiliated, and every ungrateful glance from his Tributes reminds him of how his family used to practically own this damn country and yet here he is, exposing his belly to anyone with money, helpless and inept and so, so frustrated with his life. Dressed in a suit he got from someone else's charity and supporting a home full of ingrates and lonely and with a fury as endless as the sky.
Whatever it is that set Jason off this time, it isn't sated just by smashing a piece of kitchenware. This time he backhands the Avox who rushes in to try and clean up the coffee mug he throws against the floor, sending them into the couch.
III. Swann
For someone who usually agonizes over every half-assi that goes to a necessary cause, Jason doesn't seem to mind spending money on Swann. He complains about it, at times, but it's more to go through the motions of complaining than because it actually bothers him. He buys her coffee when he can and tells her to save her money when they get lunch, getting sulky and defensive when she insists on splitting the tab. Sometimes he buys her a pastry on his way to pick her up for carpooling, although he doesn't let her eat it in the vehicle, and he has yet to ask her to help pay for fuel.
Today he shows up at her place with a large carrier in the back of his car, covered by a blanket, with a towel underneath it to protect the seats. Something inside is making scratching sounds. Jason looks a little frazzled, and shows up a few minutes late from a different route than he usually takes. He presses a button inside the car and the door opens for Swann.
"You coming, Honeymead?"
IV. Daryl and Rick
The rumors spread quickly after the Crowning, and all of them rub Jason the wrong way. A few photographs of him and Beth at the Crowning, him whispering into her ear, have made the rounds on tabloids, some of them even frontpage for the publications hungry enough to fabricate a scandal for readership. Jason's certain that he wouldn't ever touch a Tribute like that, but the fact that people are so eager to believe it of him leaves his pride feeling excoriated.
For his part, Jason doesn't treat Beth any differently, except for being a bit more stiff and cranky with her than he might have been before. But whispers swarm around them like a plague of mosquitoes, making a to-do out of something as simple as him Escorting her to a photoshoot with horses (A PONY FOR A PRICE?, a headline questions; another goes even more outrageous and wonders if Beth will say 'neigh' to marriage). He can only imagine the explanations she's making to the passel of Southerners who seem so eager to protect her.
Right now he's in the District Seven kitchen, glasses parked precariously on the tip of his nose as he writes by hand some math for the District budget. He's taken to putting most of his notes on his phone lately; he used to be able to leave writing around, but that was when most Tributes were entirely illiterate. His suit jacket hangs over the back of a chair and his shirt sleeves are pushed up to his elbows. A cup of coffee, long-cooled, sits beside him, and he occasionally asks his phone to answer some percentages questions for him.
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"Uh-huh." She nods and touches his arm, putting away the handheld sprayer for the moment. "Usually only when it lasts more than a day or two, when it gets so bad that I can't eat at all for days. It used to happen a lot more, now it's only once in a while."
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"Let me know if it does."
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She looks at him for a moment, like she's reading him, thinking about how she's not sure if he's ever said anything that directly caring before. He's not like other paramours (is he her boyfriend? She's not even entirely sure of that), who would call her pet names and tell her she's pretty and sweet and wonderful, especially when they were in apologetics over hitting her or mistreating her or whatever. Jason never gives her compliments like that, and it doesn't particularly bother her, just marks him as different in her mind, and makes what he says all the more meaningful.
She tilts her head back a little, to better let the water flow through it, holding his biceps where all his strength seems to be anyway. "It's not as bad as it sounds, you know. I throw up, but mostly I just sleep through it."
Swann doesn't want him to worry, be plagued the way she is.
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Regardless, he understands that he's made a promise.
He works the conditioner through her hair and the soap over her body, rubbing it into her creases and nooks with the sort of chasteness that comes not from disinterest but from exhaustion. He lets her wash his hair and rinse his body, and by the time they're out of the shower and drying he feels fit to pass out. The light from the candles still make him wince and so, as he gets dressed and crawls into the bed, he knows he can't look at his phone.
"I'm going to need you to text my mother. Make something up. If she knows I've had a headache she'll nag me for a month."
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Swann backtracks to the bathroom, finds his pants and the phone in his pocket. She opens it up, her face suddenly illuminated by the glow, and she's greeted with a list of texts he's received in the time he's been out of commission. Several from his mother, which doesn't surprise her, but there's a picture message, and her brow knits as she taps the alert.
She could ostensibly be clearing it. His messages screen had popped up unbidden, with the picture there for anyone to see. She wasn't snooping, she tells herself.
Everything inside her drops to the floor when the picture opens, and she's surprised she doesn't fall over, just collapse, knees suddenly weak. This is her. This is the girl from Eleven, the one Swann never directly addressed after her fight with Jason over text.
I'm so stupid, is her only thought.
She manages to gather herself enough to text his mother -- sponsor meeting running late. vip, can't leave. will be home tomorrow -- then slowly walks out of the bathroom, still holding his phone, back in the other girl's screen, all of her desperate messages now showing. She notices that he never responds.
"Jason," she says, still looking down at the phone, her voice shaky and thick and already miserable, "who is Lorraine?"
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When she speaks, for a moment he doesn't realize they're words, a question, his name and someone else's name. They're just warm syllables floating in the air, something he has to reorganize in his head to make any sense of, and when it clicks it's as if the headache has come back with a splash of ice cold water in his ears and neck.
He doesn't want this. He doesn't want to fight right now, doesn't want to have to decide between the only two people in this whole world whom he actually likes. He doesn't know how to explain what Swann is to him, but he can't explain Lorraine any more easily, except that in her bed is one of the few places he doesn't envy the dead, that she's the only person who knows things about him that he would never tell another living soul or even himself, if he could.
"A whore I know. I haven't seen her since I started seeing you." He doesn't sit up, but he shifts on the bed so he can see her in the doorway, her small, frail little body with the flowing nightgown.
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"Oh. Well, um, she wants you to know that she, ah... 'misses your big dick' and that she's not wearing any underwear, which she can't spell, apparently." Her hands are shaking violently and she doesn't want to fight either but she feels so stupid and so used and she'd promised herself she wasn't going to let these things happen to her anymore, but here she is. "Oh, and she sent a picture."
She tosses the phone on the bed at his feet, photo open on it, then takes a sharp turn into her closet, the door of which she closes behind herself before collapsing on the ground and gasping for air, clutching her knees to her chest.
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Maybe, if he weren't still in the throes of a headache, he would just kick the door open, maybe even drag her out. Maybe he would let his temper override his better judgment and his feelings for her. But his head hurts and he feels tired, so tired, and he doesn't want this. He just wants her to come back to bed.
He rests his head against the closet door. "Swann, come out of there."
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But Lorraine's face, her poorly applied eyelashes, those stupid toy handcuffs, it's all burned behind Swann's eyelids and she can't escape it because she was dumb enough to fall for this all over again.
"Why?" she calls, face screwing up as she struggles to get any oxygen into herself.
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He keeps his head against the door and rests his hand against the slats of the closet, letting his finger hook over one of the niches. He can hear each sound of her breath like a hammer in his head and finds it has nothing to do with the migraine.
"Because I don't want you to be fighting for your breath alone in there."
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"Jason," she manages to wheeze out, then chokes and her vision goes black, and she's not breathing at all anymore because she can't, her entire body feels like a toothpaste tube that's been crumpled until it's empty.
Her heart palpates and she trembles and there's a terrible moment where she's sure this is how she dies, and then she gets air back in and it feels like a wrecking ball slamming into her chest.
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"Breathe!"
It's only a few steps to get her to the bed and he covers the distance quickly, setting her down on it before she even has a chance to protest being moved. He places a hand on each shoulder, looking over her, meeting her terrified and sightless eyes.
"Breathe. God damn it. Breathe, Swann."
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"I'm breathing," she mumbles hoarsely, eyes darting back and forth across his face.
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He releases a breath of his own, only just now noticing how tense he is, how she managed to draw all his muscles taut again when he's only just relaxed. His hands loosen on her shoulders.
"Keep- keep doing that." He gets up and walks back to the closet door, slamming it closed and instantly regretting the volume of the sound it makes.
I HAVE TO SLEEP, I DON'T WANT TO
She keeps breathing, but shakily, like her body's forgotten how to do it automatically. She blinks unseeingly at the other pillow on the bed and doesn't have the will or the strength to push it away, because she both wants him to never touch her and to never let her go, all at the same time, and she doesn't know what to do with that feeling.
I WILL BE HERE FOR YOU TOMORROW MY SWEET
He imagines taking a hundred-assi note from his wallet and throwing it at her and storming away, knows how that would annihilate her from the inside out. It's tempting not because he hates her but because it would be so easy to cause so much damage. Because hurting people is something you do when you have power, and he's spent the day powerless.
He imagines curling up next to her and saying nothing, arms wrapped around her, face in her hair. It's tempting not because he loves her but because he doesn't know how to explain his feelings in words, only in the language of his body, of holding her close.
He oscillates between the two warring desires until he knows that he can't be the one to make the decision.
"Do you want me to leave?"
siiiiiiiigh good night then
Tears pool on the side of her nose and slip down.
"No."
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He settles into bed next to her, not touching her, back to back like they were that first night they shared a bed.
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They lie in silence for what seems like ages before she can speak. "Is it that I'm not good enough?"
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His voice is firm, decisive. Every sob builds on the anger inside his chest like a tower. He doesn't know how to tell her what Lorraine means to him because he can't say what Swann means to him, and here she is acting like he was unfaithful when all he's done is receive some text messages.
"My friendship with her has nothing to do with you. It never did. I met her nearly ten years ago."
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She can't stop thinking about how the situation would go in the reverse, that he would lose his mind, would go after any man that addressed her the way Lorraine spoke to him. Swann thinks he might hit her, if he found pictures like that on her phone.
"I just want to know why."
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On the bed, he folds his arms, clutches his own biceps, glaring a furrow into the wall.
"You want me not to fuck her, that's fine, I wasn't planning on it. Like I said. It's been just you since we started."
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I shouldn't have to ask specifically.
Swann's mind, the small part of it that she always squashes down because it gets her in trouble, screams things at him, begs for answers. She doesn't let any of it come out of her mouth, too scared that it will make him leave forever and hate her.
"I wasn't snooping," she says instead, weakly defending herself. "It all just popped up when I texted your mother."
She falls quiet for another moment. "I thought you hate Districters."
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"She was born in the Capitol."
But the truth is it wouldn't make a difference. In a decade of malcontent the only good dreams he has are the ones where he climbs up inside Lorraine and she listens to him with that strangely-cocked head of hers, the one that always seems like her head wasn't aligned straight with her neck. It was Lorraine who first expressed disgust at the things his mother said, who encouraged the cotton investing, who opened him up because he was lonely too and didn't even know he was.
"Like I say. I won't fuck her, I won't kiss her or even touch her, but I'm not cutting her out completely."
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"You don't even talk to her."
He said it himself, so Swann isn't sure what there is to cling to. Lecherous texts and unattractive pictures? A woman that's no doubt just as bad in person? She cries silently into the pillow for a moment about it, and it's in that moment that she knows her eagerness to love, to feel that connection, has gotten the better of her, because even with his refusal to give up a whore he barely speaks to, Swann won't make Jason leave, won't tell him off, won't get angry.
She just feels broken.
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[cw: things gonna get raunchy]
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