She takes a few deep slow breathes letting the familiar scent of her friend wash over her. He was clean here, not like back in the arena where sweat and stale clothing were the norm.

"I'm totally losing it." She muttered softly, bitter and angry with herself.

"One minute I'm scared out of my mind, the next minute I want to murder everything that isn't my friend. Then when I do kill..." she paused to collect herself "When I did kill, I felt guilty about the whole thing. I was hoping he wouldn't come back just so I wouldn't see him later and feel sorry for what I did."

It was alot of clashing emotions for her tiny body to take in.

"At the end of the arena I started seeing things. I saw a dead monster. A monster that I killed that should be dead and I tried to kill it then I died somehow. I don't know what happened."

At least she'd managed to avoid saying "her" when talking about the monster she had killed. Even now she knew the slightest hint she'd killed Penny could be the death of her.