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Hubert Oswell ([personal profile] broadsidewaltz) wrote in [community profile] thecapitol2014-09-22 11:08 pm

[closed] you rolled in like a wrecking ball

 Who| Hubert and The Signless
What| Some getting over 'dying' and a whole lot of awkward comforting an acquaintance/friend...
Where| Hubert's room, on District 9's floor
When| Soon after their respective deaths in the arena, way before the blackout
Warnings/Notes| idk a lot of sadness/comfort/hubert being unable to emote properly

Getting used to having died-- well, it still hadn't really completely sunk in. Perhaps it was stranger to feel in the midst of battle, and then suddenly, the second-long realization that he was losing his life... only to wake up, later, unscathed. Needing time to process this alone, Hubert had mostly taken to shutting himself in his room, just for a bit-- vowing to train harder than ever once he was done reflecting on his mistakes. Of course, he had put himself in a position where he was helping someone-- and he shouldn't have even deigned to. Trust was obviously a bad idea, so why had he found himself doing just that?

Ugh. He blamed the solidarity he had sensed among a couple of people he knew. Namely his rather interesting mentor, Harley, and an interesting acquaintance- the Signless, was it?

Hubert sighed, stopping in his useless pacing to perch on the edge of his bed, having showered earlier that morning- feeling fresh any way but mentally in a simple long black-sleeved sweater and plain grey slacks that clung to his legs. Nearly leggings, at that. It was just more comfortable that way.

Maybe it was best he rethink his options. Getting close to anyone here was probably a bad idea, lest he let himself get unnecessarily altruistic and softhearted again...
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[personal profile] 69problems 2014-09-23 06:09 am (UTC)(link)
He let Hubert steer him, at the very least forcing his legs to work so that he wasn't entirely a dead weight.

"Yes, they were. Karkat I only met after I arrived here, he wasn't from my time, but he... he was a mutant, like me. He understood like no one could understand. And my Disciple, my Meulin--"

He had to stop again. It was clear that out of the two of them, though both losses had hit him hard, this was the one that was really unbearable. He'd thought he'd always have Meulin, that he could lose everything else in his life but she'd still be there. Logically he'd always known he could lose her, both on Alternia and here in Panem, but the idea had been so unthinkable, and now... now what was he supposed to do?

"We were everything to each other, we had something our species couldn't even properly describe, and I can't..." His hands tightened in the fabric of Hubert's shirt. "I don't know what to do without her."

They'd always been two halves of the same whole. He knew he could live without her because she'd certainly lived without him after he'd died. He'd be able to pick himself up and keep going in time. He just had to get all of the hurt out first and be done with it.
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[personal profile] 69problems 2014-09-25 07:01 am (UTC)(link)
"Thank you," he said in a small voice. It really did mean a lot to know that Hubert cared enough to offer support, both now and in the nebulous future. It helped him feel just a little bit less alone, and that was some small comfort.

"I always -- I always knew this could happen and I thought I'd be able to handle it when it did, but..."

But he wasn't handling it. He wasn't handling it at all and it frightened him to think that he might sink back into the dark, depressed place he'd been after the jungle arena. He'd felt so alone and powerless then too.

"It's still not right. It's not right that they can decide who lives and who dies, that they can take everything from us and think nothing of it because our suffering is amusing to them."

His hands tightened even more and angry red tears gathered in the corners of his eyes.
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[personal profile] 69problems 2014-10-05 06:44 pm (UTC)(link)
The worst part was that it wasn't even that easy. For so many people going home would mean going back to a place just as bad as or worse than the Capitol. There was corruption and violence everywhere across the multiverse and escaping it in one place didn't mean eradicating it everywhere else. The Signless had given that a lot of thought once he'd learned his own future and realized that if he ever left Panem and returned to Alternia he'd be going back to die.

At Hubert's question he laughed, a hollow sort of sound, and reached up to wipe those tears away with one of his sleeves.

"Not really, no. Eventually I might be."

He didn't realize that wasn't exactly what Hubert meant.
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[personal profile] 69problems 2014-10-08 10:08 am (UTC)(link)
"Bleeding --"

He frowned and looked down at his red-stained sleeve. Ah, right. Most human bodily fluids were clear. Of course Hubert would find his red tears strange and off-putting.

"It's okay. I'm not bleeding. My tears are naturally this color."