thecapitol | We can build it together

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We can build it together

Who| Elsa and Anna
What| Elsa finds Anna
Where| Anna's room
When| After Anna dies and comes back
Warnings/Notes| SISTER FEELINGS

[Oh, the conflicting feelings. Of course Elsa is used to conflicting feelings, but this goes above and beyond what she's used to. She had been both terribly upset and relieved when Anna hadn't come back. She thought perhaps maybe it just meant she'd been sent home. They no longer wanted her. She could make herself believe Anna was safe, and no longer had to deal with the horror of the Capitol and it's arenas.

So when she finds out Anna is back, it's overwhelming how upset she is and happy she is to see her. She's missed her, more than anything. And now, she has the power to control her ice. She can't hurt Anna anymore. The desire to avoid Anna is gone, replaced by nothing but an intense desire to see her. If she could have volunteered to go back into the arena in place of her at that moment, she could have.

Instead, she can only watch Anna suffer. It's painful, and she normally doesn't like watching the Games. But she does for Anna, just to be with her in spirit. When it finally happens, Elsa cries. It hurts so much to see Elsa suffer, and she can't stop the thoughts coming that she should have done something. Eventually, though. Eventually she reminds herself that it's not her fault, and that she couldn't have done anything. Shepard's helped her get a hold of her emotions- she lets herself feel them, then she takes control. It takes a lot of work for this one, but she does manage to reign it in.

Elsa even pushes them away almost entirely, and with effort she looks on the bright side. She's been through a lot here, she can help Anna. Instead of running away, instead of being afraid, Elsa can finally be Anna's rock. They don't have to avoid each other in the arena, there is no fear of accidentally killing Anna. She can help keep Anna from spiraling into a depression the same was Elsa herself had in the beginning. The realization that she actually has the power to do something in this situation- that she can finally be the big sister she was meant to be- is enough to pick her up, to motivate her to approach Anna, even if there's a part of her that's afraid of what she'll find.

So she sets to work. She gets paper, she gets markers. She's not the best of artists, but she manages to accomplish what she has in mind. When she's finished, she hurries to Anna's room. Once outside, she takes a deep, steadying breath to steal herself. She knows Anna is going to be upset, so she needs to be calm and collected. She lifts her hand to knock.

Do you wanna build a snowman?

Then, she bends down and slides the paper under the door, face up. When Anna approaches the door, she'll see a drawing on the floor of Olaf, happy and waving at her. On the other side of the door, Elsa waits, feeling both eager and horribly nervous.

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Anna nods, her gaze dropping to her lap. It's just so supremely unfair, after everything they've been through together, that they have to be stuck here now. It's not right.

But she lifts her chin at Elsa's question. "I guess...that makes sense," she begins slowly, before burying her face in her sister's shoulder to hide how frightened she feels suddenly. "I guess, if I have to be here, I'm glad that it's with you."

Elsa's arm goes around her immediately, and for a long moment she's content to just hold Anna and comfort her. She's afraid, too. It's hard not to think of the future, when they're both going to be in an arena together. She knows without even having to know, that if it comes down to it, she will without hesitation die to keep Anna safe.

It's not negotiable, so she doesn't say anything.

After a while, she murmurs quietly, "Me too."

But she doesn't want the mood to stay so somber, so she untangles herself from Anna and stands up. "I want to show you something- you stay right there." Elsa turns and moves over to a panel on the wall. All of the suites have these little room service panels, and luckily Elsa has managed to figure them out.

She presses a few buttons, and a few seconds later, she turns around holding a plate full of chocolates in various sizes and flavors. "Ta-da!"

Anna blinks, surprised at Elsa's sudden determination to show her things. She almost protests, but her curiosity gets the better of her, and Anna watches wide-eyed as Elsa presses buttons on the wall and turns with a plate full of--

Anna squeals. "Chocolate! It's--it's real?" She peeks her head around Elsa's back. "It's real and it came out of the wall?" She gets to her feet enthusiastically and plucks one of the chocolates off the plate, inspecting it, sniffing it--and popping it in her mouth. Instantly, Anna moans happily as the rich flavor hits her tastebuds. "Mmmf, sooo gmmmd."

"Of course it's real!" She doesn't want to think of what it might be otherwise. What's tiny and brown? We have no idea.

She gives Anna a large grin as she finally plucks a piece of chocolate off the place, and she's glad to see Anna enjoys it so much. Right now, she doesn't quite have the stomach for chocolate, but she's glad Anna's enjoying it. The truth is, she knows there's a lot more to talk about and that this is only a short delay.

Because Hans is here, and there's a part of her that's afraid to bring him up. Her feelings on Anna and Hans being together are... complicated, with feelings she doesn't really want to explore in regards to it. So with Anna not bringing him up, she's torn on bringing him up herself or just... letting it be for now.

Why are feelings so strange and confusing?

"I'm glad you like it," she says quietly, holding out the plate for Anna to take. "Eat up, it's all yours."

Anna polishes off four more chocolates before finally slowing down, but when she finishes swallowing that fifth one, it's clear her mood has improved. She's always been spectacularly easy to cheer up, and Elsa knows just how to do it.

"Thank you," she beams, taking the rest of the chocolates and setting them on her nightstand. "It sounds silly, but I feel a lot better already." Maybe the sweets just reminded her of home; it's a comfort food for her. Actually, it's a miracle she hasn't gotten fat.

"I'm happy to hear that!" she says, and she means it. It's nice to know what she's helped Anna feel better, because she knows how rough it is the first little while here. "I mean, I'm your big sister. It's my job to make things better, right?" She laughs lightly. "One of these days, I'll have to teach you how to get your own chocolate though- you won't need me then, I'm sure."

She winks, just to show she's joking.

Anna giggles. "Oh, definitely not. I've always thought of you as strictly a chocolate resource, you know." But she quiets again as something else occurs to her.

"Wait, wait, so where are you staying? Another one of these snazzy rooms?"

"Oh, Anna, I'm hurt. I thought I meant more to you than that!" Elsa shakes her head gently, slowly feeling all of the weight coming off of her shoulders as the two of them joke.

At the question, she gives her a nod. "We're in different districts," she says. "I'm in 9. I'm... not sure if we're allowed to sleep in other people's rooms." There's a small pause, "But I don't really care about that. If you want me to stay here with you tonight, I can."

Anything for Anna.

It feels so good to joke with Elsa again. Even after their ordeal had concluded, even when things were good with her again, Anna was always nervous that she'd ruin it all, that their mended relationship might fall apart again. And even though this Elsa hasn't seen some of the things Anna has, it's wonderful that she's still so amiable, that their relationship is still natural.

She looks hopeful at the suggestion that Elsa could stay with her. "Please, Elsa. That would...it'd help a lot." She doesn't mention it, but she's hopeful that Elsa's presence will ease the nightmares she's been having.

If Elsa knew that Anna was having nightmares, she would have marched her down to the kitchen and made her some of the special tea they have. It's done wonders for Elsa and her nightmares. Either way, Elsa gives her a nod. "Of course, I'll stay as long as you need me to."

But she would also, finally, indulge in a little bit of chocolate, reaching carefully over to the plate and nipping a piece off. Ever the one with manners, she eats it daintily and is careful not to let any of it get on her face. It's only the sigh of happiness as she chews it that shows off how much she really enjoys it.

"You know, that's the one good thing about this place," she says when she's swallowed it. "The food... the food never stops being perfect."

Anna's grin is wider than it's been since she got here; just being near Elsa is enough to convince her that things are going to be okay. "Thank you." Anna giggles as Elsa goes ahead and eats a piece of her chocolate. It's nice to see that her sister is human, after all the time she spent half-afraid of her.

"Good to know! I don't know if you know this about me, Elsa, but I have a very healthy appetite."

It's officially the understatement of the century.

That's always going to be one of Elsa's biggest regrets; Anna being afraid of her. Elsa's always been afraid of herself enough for the both of them, to be honest. But now more than ever, she wants Anna to be able to trust her and to protect her, so she'll do whatever she can to make that happen.

"Oh really?" Elsa fakes a look of surprise. "I had no idea, I... Who are you, what have you done with my sister?"

More giggling. Anna's in high spirits, now, recent death or no.

"Don't worry. She's right here. I'm right here." Mostly, she's trying to reassure herself. Ground herself, keep herself from flying off the handle. There's still a lot of emotion brewing close beneath the surface, but now at least Anna feels like she's equipped to handle it.

"Good," she says, her voice vibrating with a chuckle. Elsa leans against Anna for a moment, before sitting upright again. "I love you, you know," she says quietly. For all she hates the Capitol, she's at least grateful that she and Anna are together. Given how arenas tend to change people, she suddenly feels the need to let Anna know how she feels. "Please, no matter what happens here, never forget that."

You know, in case she ever kills you, or hurts you, or anything of that nature.

Anna goes quiet, eyes going wide and perhaps a touch fearful, because she can't help but think of all the terrible things that could possibly happen to either of them--the scope of which she hasn't even seen yet.

"I love you too, Els." And maybe that's all she needs to get by, here--to know that someone here cares for her and is looking out for her.

Elsa gives her a small nod, before nodding towards the bed. "Good... now, you should try and get some sleep." Elsa herself wasn't quite tired enough to sleep, but she imagined Anna must be exhausted. "I'll watch over you, alright?"

Now that she mentions it, Anna realizes how tired she really is. Sleep will be good, and for once it might actually be restful, with Elsa nearby. Anna nods.

"That sounds heavenly, actually." She crawls towards the head of the bed and lets herself slide beneath the blankets, pulling them up to her chin and curling into a little ball.

"Will you get the light?"

Elsa knows how that feels, not realizing how tired you are until you think about it. It's rough, especially when sleep is hard to get on occasion. She'll have to remember to introduce Anna to the tea one of these days.

"Of course," she says, moving to stand up. "I might pop back to my room and change into pajamas later, so if you wake up and I'm not here that would be why," she adds as she heads over to the light switch and turns it off, throwing the room into darkness. "Good night, Anna."

Anna snuggles up under her blankets happily, letting her eyes drift shut as her room is thrown into darkness. "Duly noted." A wide yawn, and then silence as her poor exhausted body drifts off into slumber.

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