thecapitol | ( open ) Arrival

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( open ) Arrival

Who| Fíli and anyone!
What| Fíli arrives, and he is still quite lost despite whatever information has been given to him.
Where| Anywhere around the Training Center (also District 6 Suites), let me know in the subject line!
When| Now & during the next couple of days (ICly)
Warnings/Notes| None that I can think of.

FOR KÍLI;

Things happen entirely outside of him, beyond himself. Fíli feels as though he is nowhere at all, words spoken that he does not hear, things placed on his hands that he cannot touch. He demands then he asks, he all but begs, where his brother is, where Lake-town is, but the people around him only seem to answer questions that he is not making. Vague mentions of some games and a battle to the death hover at the back of his mind, but by the time he thinks to ask about those, he finds himself being taken to someplace else.

He does not stay for one second once he is left at the apartment, and makes off to find a way back, or at least someone he knows. He walks and runs, for however long he does not know, screaming and shouting for Kíli, for Bofur or Óin, but there is no one, he recognizes no one or nothing in this place.

It is a fear that coils at the pit of his stomach, settling heavier with each step he takes. How did he find himself here, and why? How is he to return? Panic surrounds him until it is too great for him to keep going and he all but collapses against a wall, sliding down until he is sitting on the ground, legs folded, head resting against his knees.

He can't breathe, and he realizes now that he is also lost.

FOR ANYONE;

All of this may be explained a thousand times over, still Fíli remains just as lost. He has found his brother, but that is as much familiarity as this place brings. He walks the halls and the rooms, everything strange and entirely foreign, and therefore all too intimidating to him, but he does not show it. He makes his best effort to keep his step sure as he peeks into each corner, watches each person that passes him attentively, and opens every door that he does not find locked - including doors to other people's rooms, but it is not as if he knows that.

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Fíli's eyes remain on the ground for only a moment longer, until his brother speaks and then he looks up. He could not be so delirious that he would forget his own wound, could he? His eyes settle on Kíli's leg, the one that had taken the arrow, but Kíli is moving a hand to his chest instead, and it is only a brief second before Fíli begins asking himself why.

"The one on your leg," he says, and takes a step close, finding his muscles and limbs all the heavier just thinking of reaching for his brother. The taste is sour and unpleasant in his mouth, it gurgles up his throat and makes him feel sick, and he realizes he is scared. He is stared that if he tries to check on his brother's wound, if he so much as traces Kíli's face with his fingers, he will be rejected, pushed away in another wave of cold detachment.

His free hand lingers in the air for all that while, finally settling on Kíli's arm, hesitant and entirely unsure, as if they had not ever touched before, as if this is the first time they stand this close. Fíli hates it. "The one from the arrow you took, Kíli. Remember?"

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Still, so much space hangs between them and Kili hates it though he would rather Fili not be here at all. He can't run from his brother, not with the confirmation of just a few moments before. He furrows his eyebrows when his brother mentions his leg, his mind immediately replaying the fight with Mindy and how her blade had been slammed into his thigh first, brought him down before stabbing him in the chest. While he could remember both clearly, they had disappeared when he woke back up in the Capitol. Kili reaches down for his left leg, still frowning at his brother as Fili's hand finally returns to his arm. At first, he continues to suspect that someone told Fili about the games until the word arrow leaves his mouth.

"I've never taken an arrow to my leg," he replies as he shakes his head, not overtly replying to his brother's touch but not pushing him away.

But that simple hand on his shoulder is so distant, so hesitant, and he takes a moment to just watch Fili. Concern bubbles up in his own gaze as he takes in his brother's state, his messy braids. Who had been touching his brother's braids if not him? After all, Kili plaited Fili's mane with a care reserved only for this one task. Carefully, Kili reaches up for the larger of the two braids hanging in front of his brother's ear. The last time he saw them, they were tangled but not like this.

"What's happened to your braids?" He runs his thumb over the uneven ridges until his fingers stop at string instead of the bead of silver. "Your beads, Fili!"

There is something in that moment that tips off to the fact that this, too, is wrong, that Kíli does not even remember the arrow to begin with. It is only after replaying the scene carefully in his mind that he notices, and it is an odd thing indeed - Kíli reaches for the wrong leg. Fíli knows it, he had been the one wrapping linen around the wound since they first stepped out of the river, he'd torn his own clothes when there was nothing left for him to use, and he knows that Kíli had been shot in the right leg.

"Yes, you were," Fíli sounds as confused as he does sure, which is a contradiction in itself yet at the moment seems to work perfectly. He is ready to drop to his knees then, to check for the wound with or without request or permission, in hopes that at least showing it to Kíli will spark his memory. But then his brother is touching his braids with the same confusion that had coated his own voice just a second ago, and he drops that thought for the time being.

"I had to do them myself. You were not well," it is said thoughtlessly, but only because he still does not quite understand that Kíli does not remember it. Not only that, but he has not even lived through it yet. His eyes lower to the end of the braid, where the string ties it together. "Bard's... I think I left them at Bard's house."

Kili furrows his eyebrows further as he watches his brother explain not only that he'd apparently been shot in the leg with an arrow. Of course, he almost laughs when Fili mentions he tried braiding his own hair, but the justification that follows makes Kili's stomach churn uncomfortably again. Who's this Bard? Why would Fili take out his beads in the first place? Kili had made those for him so many years ago. When he looks at his brother, he feels as if he's staring at an entirely different person, not the dwarf he grew up with and certainly not the one who he'd spent nary a minute apart from before he arrived in the Capitol three months ago.

All of it seems so foreign to him, to be touching Fili's braid and not knowing how those patterns got there. Of course, he would never let them get into such a state had he been in charge of them. Stepping a little closer to start tugging the string away, though, Kili catches a whiff of the delightful menagerie of smells haunting Fili's form. Orc, ash, and, if he wasn't mistaken, some kind of animal waste.

"What did you go rolling around in?" Kili grunts as he waves a hand in front of his nose. "Did an orc sit on you after eating some bad meat?"

His brother certainly needed some washing up, if nothing else. Some clean clothes, new braids, and makeshift beads if Kili could think of something for them. Anything, he's quite sure, would be better than the string holding them there.

"You're not getting in my bed smelling like that," he shakes his head, though he's quietly glad for the distraction from the very strange, disjointed conversation. "Off to the standing baths for you."

And he'll tug his brother along again, heading toward the bathroom in the middle of the hallway they just came from.

Fíli watches in a daze as his brother keeps touching his braid, almost detached from himself as he hears him fuss about something that now seems so unimportant. He wonders still why he even braided his own hair afterwards, it had been a lot more practical to simply tie it back. But he had done it, because they were headed to Erebor, and because that meant something. Or was supposed to, at least.

Again, Kíli speaks as if he does not remember any of it. Of course Fíli stinks, he is not surprised. His nose is used to it by now but he is sure his smell must be a most unpleasant mix between dung, sweat and fish. There had not been a time for him to bathe or even clean himself, and frankly even now, he feels that there are things far more important to worry about.

Still he lets Kíli drag him down the corridor, his eyes wandering around the area so foreign to him.

"Kíli," his voice is weak and unconvincing even to him, and he knows well it will not be enough to get his brother's attention. But it is only once they are inside the bathroom, which Fíli does not immediately recognize as one, that he tries again, his hand tugging at Kíli's arm, his voice gaining solid form then, echoing in the cold tiled walls. "Kíli! Look at me."

At first, Kili doesn't see that his brother doesn't seem to be listening to his fussing, but he pays no heed as he drags his brother to the bathroom that looks nothing like he had ever seen before arriving in the Capitol. There were a great number of things he had never witnessed or experiencing since before three long months ago. Already, he feels he has changed, that he must do so more than ever now to protect his brother. His golden-haired brother who right now is still so far away from him despite his warmth underneath Kili's fingers.

Only after Fili tugs back, provides some resistance to Kili's ever-changing mood that the younger turns once more to look at Fili. His gaze is far too bright with alcohol's touch, but there is still a heavy presence of something darker and colder lingering behind the otherwise warm brown.

"I'm looking at you and you're a mess, brother," he tries to play off again, finding what little comfort he could in his brother's presence.

He breaks from Fili's side to reach over toward the buttons on the wall of the shower, pressing a handful of them with only passing familiarity. Still, a warm stream of water from the top of the stall earns a smile from the younger dwarf.

Fíli's confusion is slowly but surely turning into a headache now. He is too far from being accustomed to everything around him, made all the worse whenever Kíli turns on a switch, opens a door, hits buttons to have water spring out of somewhere Fíli cannot even see.

He is sure he is a mess, yet he is not as bad as Kíli was the last he had seen of him at Bard's house. But words are stuck in his throat, because he can see something deep and rotten behind the glow of his brother's eyes, and it is so great, so strong that it poisons Fíli, it eats at him from the inside out. It is not simply a feeling anymore - he knows that something within him has just withered with just that briefest of glances exchanged between them. It dies at the corner of his soul and spreads across his muscles like a shiver of death.

It takes all the strength in him to not give into the weight of that coldness and distance between them, but he manages, though he finds himself resting his back against the closed wall. Finally, he speaks again, though the words slip past his lips scattered an lost.

"But your wound," the first thing is no more than a murmur, aimed more at himself than at Kíli, his eyes on the ground for a moment before he looks back up and continues, his voice a little stronger. "How do you not remember? You nearly-- you had a fever. If Tauriel hadn't come for you..."

He cannot even finish the words, not even in his own head. He shakes them off and drops them entirely. "You cannot have forgotten that."

Kili presses his lips into a thin line, his hope that Fili would somehow simply not know about the Games dimming the more his brother spoke. His hand returns to his chest as the memory flares up once again: steel biting into his chest, dropping him to the cold tile of the museum's lobby, his strength leaving him with every terrifying heartbeat, looking up at Mindy, begging her to stay until he passed. His heart clenches tighter within his ribcage and a shudder runs down his body, but he shakes his head nonetheless. The smile has long since disappeared from his expression.

How do you want to be remembered? fills his mind again as he stares across the distance at his brother, who continues to speak nonsense. He does not know a Tauriel or a fever. Certainly, his last moments had been full of a cold terror, not the heat he felt now, though the latter could be attributed to just how much of the white liquor he had imbibed that evening.

His fingers fiddle at the zipper that reaches up to the collar before he tugs it down low enough to expose his chest. Though it sends another spike of fear through them, Kili rubs his thumb across the unmarked skin over his sternum.

"It's healed, when I woke up it..." No tribute had been able to talk about their death in the arena, not to each other, not yet. "Whoever this Tauriel is, she didn't arrive in time. Was too fast to become feverish. Whatever you've seen, it looks worse than it was."

He doesn't really put it past the Capitol, though, to make up some other story involving a Tauriel and a fever or something else to cover up his cowardly death. After all, they were the ones who dressed him up in dark colors, who thought smudging kohl around his eyes would make him look more like a fierce warrior.

Honest as Kíli may be at the moment, Fíli does not recognize it as such, because he has no idea what he is talking about. He does not know why his brother is showing him his chest, which does not even hold any mark or scar to it to begin with, and his words do not explain the action in any way.

"What are you talking about?" Fíli cannot help twisting his face into a deep frown, his voice spiking in loss and disorientation, as his eyes lower again to Kíli's right leg. That is what he is supposed to show, that is where it is supposed to hurt and to be marked. His brother had taken no such blow to the chest, and frankly just the thought that he could have sends a strong painful shiver down his spine, making his bones press into one another as if he is being crushed under the overwhelming weight of something as of yet unknown to him.

"How do you not remember Tauriel? She came from Mirkwood for you." Because that much is as odd as everything else. Fíli had been there, in Bard's house, and whether he wanted to or not he had heard more than enough to know his brother would definitely know who Tauriel is.

It must be this place. Something is wrong, and it is not just the freezing quality to the wind that blows through the chasm that separates them. They are split apart by something else.

Fearing the answer perhaps, or hoping equally that it would explain anything, he asks. "What is the last you remember? From home, from... from the quest. Before you came here."

Nothing Fili says makes any sense to Kili. Not only this Tauriel from Mirkwood or the strange question that fell from his brothers' lips. Kili needs more than a couple moments to process what he's hearing. His eyebrows furrow further as he stares over at his brother, trying to comprehend everything he's just been told. While his fingers leave the unmarked skin of his chest, he doesn't zip his jacket closed again. In the past, they've used each other as soundboards for their thoughts, Kili more than his brother, but this time he does not; he sorts through his thoughts one by one as he watches his brother. He knows he's been here in the Capitol for three months. Before that, they had been in Mirkwood, yes, but the company had been arguing, Fili standing between him and Nori, Dori, and Ori. Then Thorin had said something about being watched.

"Thorin said we were being watched," he supplies, though his mind continues churning away as his eyebrows threaten to merge and become one on his forehead.

And then he woke up here, to hands pulling his weapons away from him. There was no 'Bard' or 'Tauriel' anywhere in his memories. But something strikes him as more odd than that. He's been missing for three months; the Capitol kidnapped him from Mirkwood, but Fili spoke as if he had not disappeared at all.

Before he can stop his mouth, it runs away with this newest thought, "It's been three months. Did you not miss me?"

Three months. Three months without Fili and Kili had missed him so dearly, though he wanted him to never show up in a place such as this. He missed his brother's smile, his warmth and reassurance, even his sometimes overbearing and overprotective nature. It seems impossible that Fili would not have missed him, though the distance between them right now says differently. Kili quickly tries to replay everything Fili has said since he arrived, but there are blocks and the alcohol makes the effort even more dizzying.

The answer comes, but even then it takes Fíli a while to even find that moment in his memories. Not only because it had been some time ago, but because Thorin's words had been brief and low, and soon followed by the arrival of the spiders, and then the Elves.

But that cannot be. How can Kíli have forgotten this much? Did coming here erase his memory perhaps? Even so, would he still not have his wound? Not to mention that none of this explains how Kíli seems to have been taken three months ago, when Fíli knows for a fact that three months ago, his brother was safe and hale, right next to him.

And that is the puzzling thing that Fíli answers to next, as he shrugs his shoulders and shakes his head once.

"You were never gone," he replies honestly, his whole body beginning to give into the pressure of this moment, and he can practically feel himself yielding to the senselessness of it all, bending and breaking like a twig, small, dry and pointless beneath the weight of his brother's words, and the cold they always seem to carry within.

Even so, he clings to whatever he can, as if that will distract him from the overwhelming weight sitting in his heart. And Kíli's lapse in his memory seems his best option at the moment. "That was in Mirkwood. That is long behind us. What of the Elves, the river? Or Lake-town? Do you remember nothing of it?"

You were never gone. Of everything Fili has said so far, that is the hardest for Kili to hear. Not only had he been stuck in a foreign place away from his brother, forced to attack friends, to die begging for his murderer to stay at his side, but it had been done without any knowledge of his kidnapping. Had some impostor stood in his place for those three months, some illusion that could fool even his brother? There was no denying the three months that separated him from the journey, from his brother. Not even the mention of long behind us leaves a hole in his heart like the others.

"I was here," he replies with another slow shake of his head, his own distress growing the more Fili questions his memory. "I would remember elves, brother, and I'm sure I've not seen a single pointed ear since Rivendell."

So, instead, he tries to focus on how horrible Fili smells, on something superficial and easy to fix. He gives Fili a shooing gesture toward the shower.

"You still smell." This time, it's said without a hint of a smile as he swallows down his own growing worry. "Haven't forgotten that."

Nothing in this comes together, none of the pieces given by both him and Kíli fit right, none of it makes sense. Because even if Kíli had been taken from Mirkwood, before the spiders caught up to them, that would still not have been three months ago. Even if Kíli had disappeared then, not so long would have passed.

Fíli hopes desperately for an explanation, though it is obvious that Kíli cannot give it to him. In fact, at the moment it seems like his brother cannot give him anything, not beyond cold words and fake smiles, while he tries to mask it all beneath a veil of humor that Fíli can so easily see through. He feels himself being pushed farther away with each word, every gesture, much more so than before when his brother ran from him in shock.

His movements are thoughtless, his mind too much of a haze for him to think about anything else. Wordlessly he takes off his clothes, because he does stink after all, and right now he is at a loss of what to do, where to start looking, or what to start asking. It is only when he reaches for the curtain of falling water that he realizes with some surprise. "It's warm."

Kili is so glad Fili seems to have surrendered to the shower— or, more importantly, stopped asking questions Kili would not answer— that he doesn't notice the nature of his brother's movements, how his brother seems shrouded in a fog. Instead, he releases a sigh of relief and collects Fili's clothes to fold as neatly as he can manage. He would make sure these got back to Fili after being washed; the Capitol would not rob them of more of their home. For a long moment, though, Kili stares down at them. The hooded tunic he's quite familiar with but the shirt that had been draped over it was far too large, not unlike the thing Kili had worn into the arena. Of course, Kili had noticed his brother had lost his coat and all of his weapons, but having donned something else entirely is so strange. Who had taken such things from his brother along with his beads? Was it this Bard Fili spoke of?

Still, he doesn't have long to ponder it as Fili distracts him with the mention of the warm water pouring down.

"Yes!" he chirps from where he's quickly folding Fili's things into a neat pile once more. "They say you can change how warm or cold it is, but I've yet to figure it out. There's buttons though that give you soap. Those're on the right."

He knows, though, that there are many, many buttons on the thing in front of Fili, some would drop the strange liquid soap in his hand, others some kind of perfume, but temperature control was something quite beyond his reach.

"I'll get you something clean to wear," he chatters, tucking Fili's things under one arm as he heads for the door. "Stay here."

Fíli stands in silence as he watches Kíli walk out the door, for a moment lost on what to even do. Stay here, as if he has anywhere else to go. He'll not find it in himself to stray too far from his brother, not back home and especially not here, where everything is so strange and unfamiliar. In fact thinking of Kíli stepping away even for just this brief moment is enough to make him uncomfortable, despite how cold and distant he has been towards Fíli so far.

He does nothing for a while, simply letting his hand test the water, then after some seconds he slowly steps inside the shower. The water works somewhat well in soothing his tired muscles at least, and he all but leans against the wall as he closes his eyes. His fingers undo the braids in his hair distractedly - they are a mess, after all, and there is little point in keeping them here. He wonders if Kíli will even want to braid them for him again.

Then he turns to the buttons to try and find which one would produce soap for him, but as he clicks them at random he discovers more than just one feature of the shower. The water turns scalding hot when he hits one of the buttons with an arrow on it, and yells out a curse when it burns his skin. Luckily his fingers all but smash the control and he gets the temperature back down... all the way to freezing cold.

That is far more manageable at least, though now he is rather missing that warm water. But he much prefers to take a shower like this than getting it too hot again.

As quickly as he can, Kili returns to his room to pick out a clean set of clothing for his brother. However, as soon as he closes the door behind him, he's easily distracted by the barrage of emotions he's tried to keep at bay. His fingers tangle in Fili's hooded tunic, thumbs tracing the laces and every scratch and tear. The marks, the holes, everything should be familiar, but Kili finds there are things he doesn't remember happening in his brother's tunic, evidence of time that Kili had apparently missed. His chest pounds too heavy in his chest at the thought and he hurriedly folds the clothes to hide under his bed until he can talk with the stylists about washing only. If this was all his brother had from home, Kili would protect it.

Despite the distracting task of picking something to suit Fili, Kili can't stop thinking of what the next step would be, what tomorrow would bring if he woke up to find his brother's presence real. How could he ever tell Fili anything about the Games, the Capitol, the consequences for not listening or following the orders of mentors and stylists alike? How could he help his brother if he too knew so little about this place? He had not used their time apart wisely, he had only made the decision to kill after he saw Fili. Everything in his body hurts and Kili wants nothing more than to crawl into bed and pretend to be asleep, to forget everything he had seen and heard since waking up here three months ago.

Instead, he focuses on haphazardly tearing the clothes down from the hangers, some beautiful and ornate, others more solemn and dark-colored. Every last piece of cloth goes from hanger to floor, some in shreds. Just as he's finished, though, he hears his brother's cry and immediately he acts, no thoughts as to who might be attacking his brother or why; simple instinct and paranoia surges through him as he scoops up the nearest heavy object, a bookend, and sprints back toward the bathroom.

Without hesitation, he bursts back into the room, bookend held high, anger blazing through his gaze as he tries to sight his brother's attacker. Despite his eyes quickly telling him that only Fili is there in the room, the prickles in the back of his mind tell him they must be standing right behind him, and so he spins to face the wall, slamming the door shut to see behind the door. Just as he does that, another prickle tells him to turn again, and so he does, anger and fear too hot in his mind to not respond to.

Only after the second time he turns to take in the room, does Kili realize there's no one but Fili present and though he keeps an eye on the door, he calls back for his brother, "Fili?"

The sight of his brother bursting back in through the door due to his shout should not be so startling, yet Fíli finds himself turning around in a near jump until he is facing Kíli, only barely managing not to slip and fall on the slippery floor. He would worry, Fíli knows it, but there is still something so strange about it all. Kíli is in a panic, looking frantically for dangers behind the door and in every other corner of the room, regardless of how small.

Fíli is sure that even with the surprise the water had caused him, he had not screamed in such a way to bring on this kind of worry. The exaggerated reaction is just one more thing he adds to the pile of strange things about Kíli's behavior, though for now he brushes it aside and focuses on getting his brother's attention and calming him down.

"Kíli," he calls out at first, but he knows by the complete lack of response from his brother that he did not even hear him. It is only after a few seconds that he finally says his name in return, and Fíli breathes out audibly.

"Mahal's beard, Kíli," he almost scoffs, still mostly under the spray of cold water save for his head, then gestures at the control panel of the shower. "It was this that startled me! I don't know how I did it, but I turned the water too hot, then cold."

Once he hears Fili's voice, seemingly safe and sound, Kili turns enough to look back at his brother, gaze searching for injuries, but he cannot find any. His breathing comes in hard, panicked gasps that he attempts to tame down at the knowledge that his brother is indeed safe. But for how long? his mind unhelpfully contributes. When Kili reaches out for the water and meets its icy chill, he grimaces back at the door rather than at his brother. He had not taken the time to think of what his brother's cry had meant other than danger, death, everything Kili had feared since the first time he selfishly wished for his brother's warm presence as a comfort.

"I've yet to fully figure that thing out. Best start from the beginning," he replies yet more distantly than ever as his gaze remains transfixed on the door, waiting for an attack that will not come.

Nothing, however, loosens his grip on the heavy bookend. Not his brother's words, not the realization that no attack will come with the peacekeepers able to swoop in at a moment's notice to remove threats. Not even the reminder that Kili is the threat in this situation with the weight in his hand and all of his dwarven strength. He would have to be even more careful now that Fili had arrived; he would have to watch his tongue more closely, censor his words, or else he might lose his (or worse Fili his).

For a brief moment Fíli looks back at the buttons and considers finishing his shower, or at least trying to find the soap so he can clean himself from the smell he knows he is carrying. But Kíli is still on alert, as if he expects someone to rush in and attack them at any moment, and though at any other time he would think him ridiculous, he finds the attitude more worrisome than anything else at this particular moment.

So instead he reaches over, putting his hand to Kíli's wrist firmly and tugging on it to get his brother's attention. There is no one else in the room and there won't be, Fíli is sure of it. His yell had not been of someone being attacked, and the only reason that Kíli reacted in this way is because they are brothers and he worries. That must be it, and that is all there is to it.

He does not quite believe it himself.

"Kíli, I am fine," he speaks calm and clearly, nodding at the bookend on his hand. "Put that thing down before you drop it in your own foot and injure yourself."

The touch to his wrist makes Kili jump once more, but the startle is quickly pushed away for the strong hand on his arm. He knows those sword-worn fingers better than his own and the comfort they offer. With a shaky sigh, Kili sets down the bookend on the edge of the sink and turns back toward his brother. He can still hardly believe Fili is here and Kili wants more than anything for this to all be a bad dream he can wipe away in the morning, but the grip on his arm is so solid, so present, so real, Kili could never deny it.

At the end of it all, though, he has no energy to make jokes about how Fili must be talking from experience with dropping bookends on his feet. So, Kili simply offers a quiet, "You should finish your standing bath, brother."

He is exhausted, still quite drunk though his good mood has been thoroughly soured by his brother's arrival and the truth of his presence, so he'll simply reach past his brother into the shower to restart the whole process. Fatigue and the after effects of the adrenaline surge make his fingers shake and part of him simply wants to curl up there on the floor for sleep, but the rest of him knows better than to do so in a place so unsafe.

There is worry in his eyes, much more than there is confusion, as they follow Kíli's movements quietly, his hands shaking as they press buttons and the water stops, then restarts, warm once again. But he does not press the matter, not for now, and it is clear Kíli is drunk as well, besides scared, and Fíli keeps questions for a later time. The morning, perhaps. Regardless of how little Kíli remembers - though it is more like how little has not yet happened to him, odd as it may be to think that - he is still his little brother, as real here as he would be anywhere else, and that Fíli is completely sure of. No illusion could fool him.

So he turns his attention to the shower, scattered as it may be, pressing the correct button for soap this time and washing himself down as quickly as he can, eager to see Kíli put to bed where he can sleep and rest properly, so he can stop shaking and startling at every little noise or movement around them as if they are about to be attacked at any given moment.

Once he finishes he presses the same button Kíli had to stop the water, then wrings his hair before stepping back out of the bath area, familiar enough with the notion of a towel, even if they look and feel different here, to reach for one and start drying himself.

Silence, Kili figures, at least is easy to respond to in his current state. He'd always been one for idle words and chattering about anything and everything, but now he doesn't know which words to say and which to withhold. With the shower restarted, he turns away enough to give his brother privacy but not much more than that as paranoia remains a heavy presence on his neck. Never does he step too far from the bookend either as he tries to swallow down the most obvious signs of his panic, to calm himself enough to give some semblance of normality, but alcohol and the sheer level of fear that accompanied his brother's arrival put a halt to those efforts.

Still, he tries for all he's got, for Fili's sake, until he can talk to sponsors, to friends, to mentors, anyone who can help.

He scrubs one hand over his face when Fili steps out of the shower before responding to what he feels is the elephant in the room, "Left your clothes in my room."

Yet, he makes no move to leave without Fili, not now, not after the scare bare minutes before.

Fíli doesn't know much of what else to say, so he says nothing, quietly finishing the task of cleaning himself. His eyes always set on his brother, however, on the tension so visible in his posture, even when he keeps himself turned away. But he says nothing to it, not for now at least, and he is not sure if there will be anything to say when morning comes either. For all he knows this can just be a strange effect of alcohol on him.

So once he is completely dry, he looks to the towel for a moment before wrapping it around himself. Not that he cares much that he will walk around nude, but he is not so sure they would be the only ones passing those strange areas outside of the room Kíli had taken him to first, so he may as well cover himself until they are behind closed doors and he can dress himself once again.

"Let us go, then," he breathed out, a hand reaching over gently to tug at Kíli's wrist, urging him towards the door. "It looks to me you could use some sleep right now too."

Fili's right in at least that one thing: that Kili could really use some sleep right now, and not only for the alcohol still teeming in his system. On the way out, he grabs the bookend and carries it with him, but otherwise allows him to be led back toward his room. The clothes from his closet remain strewn across the floor where he'd torn them down and he simply pads over to them to pick out something in his brother's usual browns. Everything else he leaves laying in the pile and tells himself he'll pick it up in the morning.

"I could," he finally murmurs in answer to his brother's comment as he looks back at the bed, which looks so soft and comfortable now more than ever.

That is, until he remembers that he wanted to do one more thing before crashing in bed.

"First I'm braiding your hair, brother," he glances over at Fili as he goes to his bedside table to retrieve the brush the stylists had given him to try and tame the tangled mess that was his own black hair.

Clothes are put on quickly and in silence, while Fíli keeps on turning this whole situation over and over in his head in deep thought. he doesn't think much on where these clothes even came from, or how some of them seem a bit strange compared to what they're used to, and once he's done he looks up, just as Kíli speaks.

"There is not point if we are to go to sleep. They will just be turned into a mess," he sits by the edge of the bed regardless, feeling a dull ache in his own knees and legs as he does so. he had been on his feet for a long while now, both back in Esgaroth and here, for however long he had been running around before his brother found him.

"Brush it if you will, but leave the braiding for the morning," and in turn, of course, he'll brush Kíli's hair as well.

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