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Who| Blaine and Kevin
What| Blaine comes back to Tribute Tower, Kevin wants to find out where he's been.
Where| Starting in District 12's Suites, then probably going to a bar.
When| Present day
Warnings/Notes| Talk of sexual abuse.

Blaine felt numb. So terribly numb.

He'd come back and had wanted to find Kurt only to discover that Kurt was gone again. He couldn't even feel sad about it, though he knew that blow would be coming. He just felt numb.

He took his suitcase back to his suite then and moved through the main part to get to his room. He saw Kevin and managed a smile.

"Hey," he said. "I'm back. I hope I didn't miss anything?"

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Kevin looked up and smiled when he saw his friend. "Where were you? It's been forever since..." Since Blaine died. Again.

Blaine shrugged. "I was invited to a vacation," he said carefully. "I'm going to go put my stuff away. Do you want to help?" He might be more comfortable talking about this in some privacy.

"A vacation?" That didn't make much sense. They didn't get vacations. Not even the Mentors.

"Yeah, sure."

Blaine lead the way into his room and closed the door behind him. "How were things while I was gone?"

He shrugged. "Same as always."

Blaine nodded, and then turned to focus on unpacking. After a moment, he spoke again, "So I was sent on a vacation, with a sponsor," he said carefully, watching Kevin from the corner of his eye as he spoke.

"A sponsor?" He stared at his friend's back. He didn't like the sound of that. He hadn't forgotten what Eva said when he asked her about getting sponsors for his tributes. "For fun or did they..."

Blaine looked away, not really comfortable confirming or denying anything that Kevin was assuming.

Kevin walked closer, his voice getting quieter. "They made you do things, didn't they?"

Blaine looked up at him and nodded. "I..." he said. "Why didn't anyone tell me that would happen?" he asked. "I thought they were just supporting the Games. I didn't realize that they thought they owned us."

He shook his head. He wasn't sure if he was more sad for his friend or angry at the sponsors. "I knew sometimes after. But I thought it was just after. And if we said..." He bit his lip. It was bad enough they kept dying and it was his fault. Was this because of him, too?

Blaine sighed. "So if you win, that's what you have to look forward to? Just belonging to them forever?" Then, after a moment, Blaine looked a little horrified over a realization. "Has it happened to you? Did someone do that to you?" He couldn't handle the idea that after everything that Kevin had been through he was still being abused here. The thought of that even overrided his own hurt, and it was possible that he clung to it a little to ignore what had happened to him for a moment.

Kevin shook his head quickly. "Not here. I thought it was just if we said we would." But Blaine hadn't. So maybe this was what Eva really meant. "Maybe if I'd said something about it, they wouldn't have..."

Blaine shook his head and went to Kevin. He put a hand on Kevin's arm. "None of this is your fault."

Kevin couldn't meet his eyes. "Everything else is."

Blaine shook his head. "No. It's not." He then moved closer and put an arm around Kevin's body. "It's theirs."

"Yeah, it is. I'm supposed to get you all out of there."

"Hey," Blaine said as he squeezed Kevin's arm lightly, trying to reassure him. "You're doing your best. That's all I can ask."

"I want you to be okay." They were friends. It was something he hadn't had in years. "And I'm tired of people dying because of me."

"No one is dying because of you," Blaine said again. "It's the Capitol. Not you."

Kevin sighed. "I wish it was just them. That's like saying everyone back home was just Yvette."

"Well, the Games are their fault, sponsors are their fault, the fact that we have to pretend to be okay with it all its all their fault. It's not your fault that I'm in the Arena, and it's not your fault that I was on vacation now, okay?" He wince a bit at calling what happened to him a 'vacation' but he tried not to make it too obvious to Kevin.

"I know that. Just like everything at home was Yvette's fault." But knowing that didn't keep him from feeling guilty all the same. "I just wish I was better at being a Mentor."

Blaine wasn't sure what to say any more. Instead of speaking he just came closer to Kevin and pulled him into a hug. "I'm sorry," he said. "This has to be bringing things back."

Kevin forced a smile for his friend's sake. "It's not your fault. I just want to see if maybe it doesn't have to happen again."