"I'm all of them, I'm everything. Matesprite, moirail, kismesis. I'm just...shit at being everything lately." She doesn't say that it might be their vast divide in time, him so early, her so late and her living without him.

"And of course I have feelings, I'm just not selfish. I went sweeps without him, I'm not going to ruin my second chance because I'm too much of a wriggler to deal with harsh words spoken in anger and sorrow."