It was a hard question to answer, harder than she thought it would be at least. Was it an easy decision to make? No, not at all, even if she had to make it quickly. But would she make it again if it meant keeping her husband, if it meant her son wouldn't have to grow up without his father?
Every time, no matter how selfish it was of her.
"I..." She paused, unsure how to answer that, trailing off she she could gather her words, "I wish I'd had more time to think about what was going to happen to him. That I wouldn't have had to make the decision for him, or that they would've told me more about what they had in mind." That she could've tried to keep him from being some marketing strategy for a company that didn't know him as anything other than a service record and some vital signs.
Oh, how she wished that he was right. "What if I don't forget? What if I remember killing each person I had to kill so I could survive?" What if she remembers all of the people she had to leave behind so she could return to her family? Not to mention what Dr. Norton had told her in his short time in Panem. "Even if I forget, my hands won't be clean. There was a man from my world who was here for a little while who told me things. That Alex..." she took a breath to steady herself, "That he was going to kill someone because of us, isn't that blood on my hands as well?" If anything, knowing that made her fear going home somewhat. Being reunited with her family would be amazing, but having the death of Raymond Sellars at Alex's hands hanging over her head was intimidating, to say the very least.
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Every time, no matter how selfish it was of her.
"I..." She paused, unsure how to answer that, trailing off she she could gather her words, "I wish I'd had more time to think about what was going to happen to him. That I wouldn't have had to make the decision for him, or that they would've told me more about what they had in mind." That she could've tried to keep him from being some marketing strategy for a company that didn't know him as anything other than a service record and some vital signs.
Oh, how she wished that he was right. "What if I don't forget? What if I remember killing each person I had to kill so I could survive?" What if she remembers all of the people she had to leave behind so she could return to her family? Not to mention what Dr. Norton had told her in his short time in Panem. "Even if I forget, my hands won't be clean. There was a man from my world who was here for a little while who told me things. That Alex..." she took a breath to steady herself, "That he was going to kill someone because of us, isn't that blood on my hands as well?" If anything, knowing that made her fear going home somewhat. Being reunited with her family would be amazing, but having the death of Raymond Sellars at Alex's hands hanging over her head was intimidating, to say the very least.