The hug isn't what Sam was expecting, but he leans into it, just a little, for as long as it lasts.
It's obvious that Kurloz is hurting, having Psiioniic around, and Sam wouldn't blame him if he did get pissed off at Sam for wanting something like that. Out of the arena, away from the caves and without Riley's voice screaming at him, Sam knows it isn't what he wants. He doesn't want Riley here, in the games, having to go through all of this. And he feels guilty for even thinking about being jealous of something that's causing Kurloz pain.
But like Kurloz is saying, sometimes he still wishes it'd never happened, that there was some way that he could fix it. Four years later and there's still a part of him that wants to wake up to Riley kicking him for sleeping in too long.
"Thanks," he says quietly, when Kurloz says he doesn't blame him. "You're right, though. Sometimes we all wish something like this could just be easy, but it never is. I never found anything that didn't come from working long and hard." He gives a shaky smile. "End result is usually pretty damn good though."
Sam lets out an exhale, nodding. "I fucked up," he agrees. "But I think I just needed to tell you." He runs a hand over his jaw. "I can't go around telling you that you're going to backtrack, but you gotta own it and get yourself back on the path if I won't do the same when it happens to me, right?"
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It's obvious that Kurloz is hurting, having Psiioniic around, and Sam wouldn't blame him if he did get pissed off at Sam for wanting something like that. Out of the arena, away from the caves and without Riley's voice screaming at him, Sam knows it isn't what he wants. He doesn't want Riley here, in the games, having to go through all of this. And he feels guilty for even thinking about being jealous of something that's causing Kurloz pain.
But like Kurloz is saying, sometimes he still wishes it'd never happened, that there was some way that he could fix it. Four years later and there's still a part of him that wants to wake up to Riley kicking him for sleeping in too long.
"Thanks," he says quietly, when Kurloz says he doesn't blame him. "You're right, though. Sometimes we all wish something like this could just be easy, but it never is. I never found anything that didn't come from working long and hard." He gives a shaky smile. "End result is usually pretty damn good though."
Sam lets out an exhale, nodding. "I fucked up," he agrees. "But I think I just needed to tell you." He runs a hand over his jaw. "I can't go around telling you that you're going to backtrack, but you gotta own it and get yourself back on the path if I won't do the same when it happens to me, right?"