silberfuchs: (thinking)
Albert Heinrich ([personal profile] silberfuchs) wrote in [community profile] thecapitol 2015-01-28 05:18 pm (UTC)

"Mourn, change, and keep going." Albert sips at his tea, as if it were that easy. It's not, and he knows it's not for all the loss he's suffered in his life, but ultimately it is what happens if you don't let it drown you.

"I lost a fiancee, before Jet." It still hurts to think about, especially with the Capitol having concocted an apparition of her in a previous Arena, one feral and hungry that he'd had to put down. "It took me a very long time - years - to recover, and I never really 'got over' her death, not in the way that people talk about such things. I still think about her."

He doesn't sound ashamed, instead giving Sam a small, quietly self-deprecating smile. "I know that may sound suspect considering I'm a married man now, and happily so, but people who die never actually leave you. It's just a matter of how you carry that memory, if you let it be a weight or if it's instead a talisman."

"I'm not saying it's easy, but for what I know of you Sam, I think you would turn that pain into strength." Better than Albert did for the longest time, anyway. Hilda's memory would hold him back from so much at times, when in truth she'd likely want him to be happy, to have as much of a good life as he could.

She never could have predicted this, but even so... he likes to think she would be proud that he hadn't managed to give up all those years ago, begging to die on the operating room table. He likes to think she would approve of where he ended up as a person.

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