"I think the less of a goal I have, the better my performance will get." And it's true. When her only aim was to die, she killed more. Now that she's tried to go about it in a morally salient way her list of murders has shortened significantly.

"You don't know me, Azula. You know the surface. You don't know why I got into the field I did, and believe me, it's because the end goal was really..." She reaches for and finds a word that she picked up back when she was dating Enjolras, "nihilistic."