Once, in his early days here, Mituna had told him he would surely win, only to be contered with the statement; If Messiahs willed it. He remembers the confusion clear and how it deepened when, on further pressing about death, he said he would accept death if Messiahs willed it too. He remembers the odd expression Mituna had donned, like there was something sad about serving to fullest ability of the righteous willing. This reminds him of it, somehow.

"TEREZI SPEAKS SPARING UPON FUTURES. She claimed once of 'spoilers' but mostly he believes it makes her unhappy," He explains, as he lifts his head. He pays no mind to the flush of yellow. "FURTHER, SHE CANNOT STAND THE PREACH, AS HE TENDS TO IN THE CASE OF THIS. He knows you are an atheist, Captor, so he ain't to fool himself in thinking you'll believe. BUT HE KNOWS MESSIAHS' WORK. He knows you have done a great motherfucking thing, chosen person by the holy two. PRIDED MYSELF AS THEIR MOST LOYAL SERVANT. How could he not feel so motherfucking envy for chosen ones to know he has no more part of future in their designing? YOUR VISITATIONS UNDONE IS IRRELEVANT. You are still chosen, and still a great part of what is to come and the holy workings. BUT ENOUGH OF THE PIOUS NOISE. He knows you have little care for it." He waves a hand and smiles like it doesn't bother him that he's surrounded by atheists at all times now.

Speaking of things what bother him...

"KARKAT AND I DID NOT GET ON," He says. "He arrived here before myself. I WAS DIFFERENT THEN. When I had mistaken him to perhaps be the Signless, I was hostile as due. NEVER GOT TO FIXING IT ALL, WE. Wasn't fond particular as how he treated Terezi or spoke on my moirail. MADE TRUCE ON TEREZI'S ASKING AS TO HARM NONE OF HERS. I would have been given nothing from he."

And he can't pretend like he misses the motherfucker either. Even as he knows his ashmates do.