What kind of world was she from, that someone her age knew about things like that? What kind of world was this that something like this could even happen?
Then she hugged him and that pretty much opened the flood gates.
"I can't," he sobbed out. "She said she'd take them away. She said she'd take my memories of my family and Belt away. With her poisons."
He'd lose them in the worst wall possible. In some ways it was better because at least they'd live, but he'd lose even the ways they'd touched him and changed him and made his life better.
"I wouldn't be me anymore. I wouldn't even be sane."
No Belt. Living alone had already left him a little unhinged by the time he'd met Eep but at least he'd had Belt. At least he'd had a friend and had mostly been happy even if he kept hoping he'd find Tomorrow, a place he could be happier.
No Belt meant no friend meant remembering his life as an entire life alone, from childhood on.
"And if I try to just end it, she said she'd take it out on my friends."
And who knows? maybe she'd take it out on his family too, just out of bitterness. That meant there was no way out. She'd made it so there was no way out.
He sobbed openly, uncontrollably, falling apart and hating himself for doing it in front of someone he should have been strong in front of. He was the adult. It was his job to be strong for her not the other way around.
But right now, he felt like he couldn't be strong for anyone.
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What kind of world was she from, that someone her age knew about things like that? What kind of world was this that something like this could even happen?
Then she hugged him and that pretty much opened the flood gates.
"I can't," he sobbed out. "She said she'd take them away. She said she'd take my memories of my family and Belt away. With her poisons."
He'd lose them in the worst wall possible. In some ways it was better because at least they'd live, but he'd lose even the ways they'd touched him and changed him and made his life better.
"I wouldn't be me anymore. I wouldn't even be sane."
No Belt. Living alone had already left him a little unhinged by the time he'd met Eep but at least he'd had Belt. At least he'd had a friend and had mostly been happy even if he kept hoping he'd find Tomorrow, a place he could be happier.
No Belt meant no friend meant remembering his life as an entire life alone, from childhood on.
"And if I try to just end it, she said she'd take it out on my friends."
And who knows? maybe she'd take it out on his family too, just out of bitterness. That meant there was no way out. She'd made it so there was no way out.
He sobbed openly, uncontrollably, falling apart and hating himself for doing it in front of someone he should have been strong in front of. He was the adult. It was his job to be strong for her not the other way around.
But right now, he felt like he couldn't be strong for anyone.