He listens to Terezi, feeling on the edge of something. Like he was on that rooftop. And then he's falling again and its slipping away.
"It's not extra. IT'S PART. That's why it's..." He still sounds defensive. He feels like when he was just one among a crowd, an outlier. He's trying to understand but he can't.
"YOUR PEOPLE. They're important to you, aren't they? IS IT BECAUSE THEY'RE ALIVE OR BECAUSE THEY MEAN SOMETHING TO YOU?" And he's trying anyway and it feels foolish. A waste of time. Can't teach, can't learn. He shakes his head. They could, things could change, they had already, and he'd seen it, it helped him.
But he's not going to be part of it no matter how and who is trying.
"You don't have to see it, Disciple. HE AIN'T GOING TO FORCE THIS AS ALL YOU SAY." He starts to stand up. Straight and tall. He looks at Terezi and he looks at her blank faced (as if she were a higher up of subjugglators, as if he's just another faceless soldier). "Permission for him to go, Terezi. THE TWO OF YOU CAN CONTINUE AS IS."
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"It's not extra. IT'S PART. That's why it's..." He still sounds defensive. He feels like when he was just one among a crowd, an outlier. He's trying to understand but he can't.
"YOUR PEOPLE. They're important to you, aren't they? IS IT BECAUSE THEY'RE ALIVE OR BECAUSE THEY MEAN SOMETHING TO YOU?" And he's trying anyway and it feels foolish. A waste of time. Can't teach, can't learn. He shakes his head. They could, things could change, they had already, and he'd seen it, it helped him.
But he's not going to be part of it no matter how and who is trying.
"You don't have to see it, Disciple. HE AIN'T GOING TO FORCE THIS AS ALL YOU SAY." He starts to stand up. Straight and tall. He looks at Terezi and he looks at her blank faced (as if she were a higher up of subjugglators, as if he's just another faceless soldier). "Permission for him to go, Terezi. THE TWO OF YOU CAN CONTINUE AS IS."