Some chord was struck with her. She'd been that desperate once, in her darkest moments in the Arena. She'd felt that way even after leaving. Sometimes she still felt the grief weighing her down and it took every ounce of her courage to stand tall and glitter when inside she wanted to end it all. Maybe, in someways, setting herself on fire (or suicide by another extreme act) would have been the better choice in the end.

The problem for Ian was that suicide wasn't really the end.

"You haven't made it a habit and it hasn't spread to the others. That's why they haven't cared."