Maximus Decimus Meridius (
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thecapitol2014-01-15 12:26 pm
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Who | Maximus and Wyatt (closed)
What | Shameless shipping
Where | Wyatt's room, back int he capitol
When | night before the Arena
Warnings/Notes | cloudy with a 100% chance of smut
It had taken them telling him twice for Maximus to actually believe that he wasn't going into the arena this time. He'd been told he wouldn't be fighting after his victory, after all, and he'd still found himself in the arena, so he had a little difficulty grasping the fact that this time he really wouldn't be allowed to fight.
The argument that he had with his escort rattled the windows.
An hour later, however, Maximus was forced to admit a grudging defeat, slam his door behind him, and stalk to Wyatt's room. He disliked having to break this particular news and he disliked the fact that he had to even more - it felt like a betrayal, at best, and weakness at worst, and a very small dark part of him worried that Wyatt would think that he wanted to stay. That he wanted to be separated from him, that he wanted Wyatt to go into the arena alone. That small dark part of him was terrified, because it was so very opposite from the truth.
He was much more worried about himself, being forced to stay in the Capitol and watch Wyatt fight for his life.
(He could not concieve of what he would do if the man didn't return)
(Burn the Capitol to the ground.)
He knocked on Wyatt's door when he arrived at his rooms, but let himself in without waiting for the reply.
"They will not allow me to fight," He got out, before Wyatt could say anything.
What | Shameless shipping
Where | Wyatt's room, back int he capitol
When | night before the Arena
Warnings/Notes | cloudy with a 100% chance of smut
It had taken them telling him twice for Maximus to actually believe that he wasn't going into the arena this time. He'd been told he wouldn't be fighting after his victory, after all, and he'd still found himself in the arena, so he had a little difficulty grasping the fact that this time he really wouldn't be allowed to fight.
The argument that he had with his escort rattled the windows.
An hour later, however, Maximus was forced to admit a grudging defeat, slam his door behind him, and stalk to Wyatt's room. He disliked having to break this particular news and he disliked the fact that he had to even more - it felt like a betrayal, at best, and weakness at worst, and a very small dark part of him worried that Wyatt would think that he wanted to stay. That he wanted to be separated from him, that he wanted Wyatt to go into the arena alone. That small dark part of him was terrified, because it was so very opposite from the truth.
He was much more worried about himself, being forced to stay in the Capitol and watch Wyatt fight for his life.
(He could not concieve of what he would do if the man didn't return)
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He knocked on Wyatt's door when he arrived at his rooms, but let himself in without waiting for the reply.
"They will not allow me to fight," He got out, before Wyatt could say anything.

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"Max..." Wyatt looked at him, uncertain what to say as he sank back into his seat.
As the days had gone by without any word, he'd begun to suspect that there wasn't going to be a repeat of the last arena. He couldn't say he was all that surprised by the news.
"...It's alright, Max."
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"I should be in there," He said firmly, his eyes blazing as he looked at Wyatt, but his anger was obviously directed elsewhere. "I should be in there, Wyatt, and they know that."
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Glad he wouldn't have to see another arena. That he wouldn't have to suffer more pain, another death because of him.
Wyatt met his gaze, blue against blue. Max's anger against Wyatt's steady resignation.
"Ya did yer time, Max. Ya shouldn't be doin' mine too."
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He crossed over to where Wyatt was sitting and kneeled before him, grasping his arms. "You know I would not let you go alone if I had any other choice," He said, meeting Wyatt's eye and holding it.
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Automatically, without even pausing to think about it, his fingers wrapped around Max's forearms in turn, holding back. A firm grip, a desperate edge, as he felt the Capitol readying to pull them apart.
"I don't doubt that, Max, I ain't never doubted that... but yer wrong about there not bein' a difference." His fingers squeezed and he shifted again, leaning closer. "If I got'a go in there, it means -- it makes a difference to me to know you're out here. That you'll be here when I get back."
If... if. He didn't say it, but it was there, sharp in the back of his mind. A knife against his spine.
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"But I would have rather been there, too." Maybe that way if Wyatt didn't come back, he'd share the man's fate.
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He struggled with it, the silence stretching as he wrestled with the halves of his heart. The part of himself that wanted to give Max what he needed whatever the cost, and the part that didn't want to die knowing he'd never told the man just what he meant to him.
That selfish bit of him that didn't want his last moments to be ones of regret because he'd never told Max that he loved him.
Finally, he took a breath, clearing his throat roughly and letting go.
"I... I got somethin' for ya," he rumbled, low and thick, as he shifted, turning to reach for one of the drawers in the desk. "I got it before, an' I know it ain't what ya really want, but I'd still like ya to have it."
He pulled out the book - that silly damn book (District 10: A Photographic Journey) he'd foolishly bought on a whim before Christmas, before he'd realized just how much of a dream it really was.
(A dream he still hoped in when no one was looking. Still foolishly wanted enough to build upon it. All those photos he'd taken during the tour stuffed into the pages.)
"It was yers first an'... I'd rather you have it than the Capitol do whatever with it that they do when someone don't come back."
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Farmland. The entire book was filled with pictures of farms in District 10, of endless rolling fields of wheat.
Of peace.
A sharp pang of guilt stabbed through his chest, but it wasn't for his lost family. It wasn't for his wife, or his son, or the ashen husk of their home. This was for Wyatt - only for Wyatt - who he'd made believe that he didn't want this. Who he'd somehow convinced that this wasn't what he wanted most in the world. (And that it was the wanting that was the problem.)
He knew what Wyatt meant. Knew the half joking hopes they had shared - a quiet farm in the country, a quiet peace. And he wanted it, more than he could ever say, and certainly a good deal more than he possibly should.
His fingers tightened around the book and his throat tightened in tandem, before he carefully closed its cover so that none of Wyatt's pictures would fall out.
Silently, he stood, and without letting go of the book reached his arms out around Wyatt to pull him into a hard and longing kiss. For all the words he couldn't say, he hoped this sufficed.
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"I ain't--" The explanation was there, the reaffirmation of his promise ready on his tongue... but then Max was reaching for him and the words died.
He'd prepared himself for hurt, anger, even to be pushed away again.... He had no defense against an embrace, against a kiss, warm and firm and tasting of all those things he told himself not to hope for.
His heart thumped, a twisting lurch in his chest, busting free of the fences he'd tried to wrangle it with, and Wyatt moved to meet him. His lips moving against Max's as his arms came up, closing the embrace around them.
"Max--" The rough, callused fingers of one hand slipped into his hair, the palm of his hand warm on the back of Max's neck. His forehead pressed against his as he dragged at a breath. "Max, I ain't askin' for nothin'. I jus' -- I can't go in there without..." One last hesitation as his eyes met Max's (that endless blue horizon). "I love you."
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He met Wyatt's eyes and the meaning shimmered there, reflected, but not a word left his lips - preoccupied, instead, with tipping forward and taking another kiss, firmer than the last and hungrier, as if everything in him was trying to burst forward from this point.
Didn't trust himself with words, not now. Not yet. Not until he could really mean it, fully and completely, and without a trace of guilt. Without looking, he set the book down at the table so that he could pull Wyatt into a firmer embrace.
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He'd told him the truth. Had shown Max his heart and the man hadn't turned away.
He didn't say it again, couldn't the way his mouth was preoccupied, moving against Max's, but he felt it there in his chest. A heat, pulsing beneath his ribs with every hard beat - the knowledge that he would go into the arena and that they could beat and burn him, break and bury him, but that the most important parts of him, his heart and his soul, would be here, with Max.
Love surged through him in a heated wave and he shifted, tipping his head to take the kiss deeper. His arms wound through Max's, pulled him closer until he feel him, chest to chest, hip to hip - molded together close enough that he could believe for a moment that nobody, not even the Capitol, would be able to come between them.
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That he was fallible, and even worse - so were the ones he had once worshiped. His Emperor, his wife. His entire life had been built on worship, and though he still worshiped them in death (indeed had worshiped them ever the more fervently), life kept bringing back reminders that nothing was ever perfect. Not even beliefs.
And one belief, the one that had been the core of him since he had felt himself wither and die at the feet of his burning child, was crumbling.
I live only to hold you again, for all else is dust and air.
How could he possibly continue lying to himself that way? Wyatt's lips were warm and his pulse was strong and Maximus could feel his own pulse racing to match it, could feel the answering tide rising in him, easily, freely. Wyatt's touch was far from dust, far from ash, and maybe - just maybe - he could let himself want it.
Could let himself love, when he could hardly stop himself if he tried.
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Even if he lived, survived against everything, and came out with a crown upon his head... there was no promise of what the future would be. The rebellion might succeed or fall. The Games might end, or they might go on, an inescapable part of this world.
The only thing Wyatt knew for certain, without any question, was that he had this moment - this last small string heartbeats to call his own - and that he wanted to spend them loving the man in his arms.
Tomorrow he would fight for the chance for more - whatever they might hold - but tonight, now, he wanted to make the most of the ones he had.
His heart skipped, already kicking against his ribs in a heady race, but he willed his hands to slow, his lips to soften. Both to linger. To make every touch and every kiss last.
His hands were steady as the molded over Max's flanks, warm through the fabric of the simple tunic; his fingers purposeful as they worked at the leather of Max's belt. His lips worshiped, moving over the rough hair of Max's jaw and down to the heated skin of his throat - drawing in the taste of him in a slow memorization.
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Wyatt wanted to be loved, and that was not something difficult to give him.
His head tilted, neck arching to allow Wyatt's lips easier access, his fingers spreading against the man's chest as they worked the fabric from his shoulders.
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The sound of his own heart beating, a wild rush in his ears - the answering drum of Max's beneath his lips.
His shoulders rolled, easing the shirt over and down and finally off, and then his hands returned. Gathering up the fabric of Max's tunic, fingertips grazing across the man's thighs, over the dip of his hips. Just as slow, just as steady.
He was digging a well, building a library of memory to take with him.
Saying goodbye in the only way he could.
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It wasn't goodbye, however.
Because if Wyatt was going to his death, nothing would keep Maximus in this world for much longer.
(Just long enough to watch the world burn.)
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"Max..."
He nipped lightly at the man's lip, soothed it away with another lingering kiss as his fingers curled into the small catch of fabric stretched over Max's hips. Tugging, as he took a small step back, and another, until the backs of his knees hit the bed. He sank onto the edge of the mattress, lips moving down Max's chest, over his stomach.
Teeth grazing his hip as he pulled the last barrier away. Pushed it down along Max's legs.
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Only then did he let his fingers finally stray to Wyatt's belt and pull it free.
"I'm here, Wyatt," He murmured huskily as he went to work on the rest.
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(As if the dawn wasn't coming. As if he could live here, in this moment, for the rest of his days.
He would, if he could.)
His back arched, hips twisting to help Max's hands as they wrangled with what remained of his clothes. His lips worked over Max's face - slipping over the hard line of his cheekbone, down along the curve of his jaw - hot, open-mouth kisses, tasting as he roamed. As his arms slipped around him and guided Max's heated body down to his own.
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That deep, aching desire to be complete that only Wyatt fulfilled.
He groaned, lowly, his mind following the warm trail of Wyatt's lips even as it was distracted by the aching need as he slowly began to rock his hips against Wyatt's, ducking his head down for his lips and teeth to find the man's shoulder.
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Everything he truly needed, he had.
He pressed his lips to burning column of Max's throat, taste and scent and the feel of his pulse drumming against his mouth, and wanted for nothing. The weight of death and despair lifted from his shoulders, the hollow in his chest warm and full - in that moment, he was whole.
Then, there a flash of heat, like a bolt of lightning, arching from Max's mouth at his shoulder - that small bite of pain - down his spine to his groin, and a hot stab of need spiked in his gut. His hips lifted to find the cradle of Max's, meeting the rhythm in a hard flex of muscle, his thigh squeezing against the other man's.
His love and his lust, both were Max's.
Unexpected, unimaginable... everything he wanted and needed.
His arms coiled around him. His knee pressed against his hip. And he shifted, rolling them together, opening the expense of Max's chest to his lips.
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Wyatt rolled him and his back hit the sheets, his leg still locked around Wyatt's as he rolled his hip up to meet him. He barely had the imagination for what he wanted, vague tumblings with pinpricks of heated lust in his mind.
He murmured Wyatt's name as the man pressed lips to his chest, his hand coming up to lace his fingers through Wyatt's short cropped hair.
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It was too much. It wasn't enough.
Never enough.
He braced himself on one wide, damp palm, fingers winding in his sheet beside Max. The other sought out, molding over his hip, played against his thigh, and gently worked himself enough to keep moving. To run his lips over Max one slow, agonizing inch at a time.
Over and back along the curve of his ribs. Down over the hard muscle of his stomach, clenching and flexing beneath his mouth.
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His heart thumped, heavily, as he finally took Wyatt's intention and the groan he let out then was much more longing, a hand coming up to run fingers through Wyatt's short-cropped hair, to knead into his scalp.
He murmured his name as he pulled himself up, half propped on an elbow.
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He wanted to give - wanted to take.
Eyes dark with desire, he looked up as Max shifted, gazes tangling. Holding steady as his lips continued their slow journey, following the hard ridge of a scar down to the vee of Max's hips.
Unversed, to say the least, the first touch of his mouth was careful - an exploring brush along the heated length.
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"Wyatt--" He murmured again, and he couldn't tell if the next words waiting at his lips were a plea for the man to continue or a reassurance that he didn't have to. In the end it didn't matter, he couldn't voice either of them.
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His mustache twitched, the briefest edge of a smile, and he moved under Max's hands. His head pressing against Max's knuckles as he lifted and opened his mouth.
Tasted him with a curious curl of his tongue.
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No. No, he most certainly didn't want to stop.
His muscles flexed and tensed and twitched - every ounce of him taut with anticipation, forcing himself to keep his hips still rather than press up to that delicious hint of wet warmth.
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His mustache brushed, his tongue curled, and Heat meeting heat as he drew Max into his mouth. As he tried to drag more from him.
Another groan, another hard pull... some part of Wyatt - some old, wild part him - wanted feel Max come apart. Wanted to push him over the edge.
Wanted to know he'd brought him pleasure.
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That he was currently bringing him an incredibly intense pleasure was not only fact, it was obvious - his entire body straining and twisting in Wyatt's hands, under the pressure of his lips.
His own lips fell open in a wordless moan, his blood racing through his veins and thundering in his ears. "Gods, Wyatt--" He cursed lowly, struggling to keep his own pleasure in check. "If you keep--"
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Every twist and buck, every pant and groan echoed inside him - a hot rush in his veins, a hard twist in his gut, a tingle and twitch in his groin. Max's pleasure a large part of his own.
The only question was how to give him more.
Following instinct, more than design, it took him a moment to remember that he still had a free hand, but once he did, he was quick to put to use.
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The taste of him - salt, and earth, leather and steel. The smell, like a wild wind moments before the storm.
Wyatt rode the crest with him, along the arching strike of lightning, swallowing thickly. His lips loosing their hungry edge, turning soft as they played over Max's stomach in the aftermath, guiding him slowly back to Wyatt's arms.
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He was completely done, but Wyatt wasn't, and despite the warm exhaustion settling into his bones, he was going to reciprocate as fully as he possibly could.
"Lie down," He murmured against Wyatt's lips as he finally found them, taking them into a deep kiss.
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He would have been content with that - just to lay there in the hours he had left, warm with Max - but whatever words he might have said, the promises he'd have made assuring Max that he didn't need anything more, died in the kiss. The firm press of Max's lips against his own shuddered through him, a hungry, eager flutter of muscle and his good intentions slipped through his fingers like so much water.
"...Max," Wyatt rumbled, nipping at Max's lip, at his chin, as he leaned back and turned onto his shoulder, following the low order blindly.
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He wasn't about to leave such a debt unpaid.
He shifted downward, sliding himself along Wyatt's body as his lips trailed south.
As he made his intended destination incredibly clear.
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He held to Max like a man drowning, for that's what he was. Heat and pleasure buffeting waves. The feel of Max's mouth on him, his body against his own, the wild tumbling of his own mind, the sharp edge of anticipation, all dragging him deeper.
"Max, I--" He meant to warn him, to tell him own close he already played the edge of his strength - the very edge of reason, but he couldn't get the words out. The very sight of it robbing him of his voice. Of his very breath.
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Until he could pull the whole length of it into his mouth.
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Later, if asked, Wyatt honestly wouldn't be able to remember the curse that ripped up through his throat. A spit of gravel and grit. Words that nearly strangled him as everything in him slammed to a hard stop.
Everything he was ceasing, existing in that moment only for the heat of Max's mouth. The scratch of his beard, the grip of his hand, the graze of his teeth.
In that moment, he knew suddenly why they called it a sin. A man wasn't supposed to glimpse Heaven outside of God's embrace.
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He stiffed, a hard, fast jerk of muscle and choked out a one last low, strangled word - more sound than speech, Max's name mangled between his teeth - and released. Hands clamped on Max, fingers fisted in the short, damp crop of hair, he rode out the hot, wet rush - wondering with his last conscious thought if it was possible to know death this sweet.
Thinking he would more than content if it was so.
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He chuckled, again, lowly, as he ran the back of his hand along his lips - nothing but relief and contentment in the sound, before he leaned down and pressed a clumsy kiss to Wyatt's hip. It seemed even without experience he'd managed to do well, and that was all he could ask for.
To do well by Wyatt.
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And finally taste, rich and warm, as he dragged the man weakly back to him. Finding that mouth in a lazy kiss.
(One more, he told himself.
One more, he lied.)
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When he pulled away to breath it was only for a moment - then he returned to Wyatt's lips and kissed him deeply, just to prove that he would have whether the man had pulled him there or not.
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That warm, steady heat - the love, the happiness - in him, given to him by the man in his arms, more than enough to ward off the rest.
Another kiss, slow and soft, and Wyatt shifted, enough to make room beside him. The one hand slipping off Max to reach for the sheet.
Offering without prompting.
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When they came to take Wyatt away in the morning, they had to get through him first.